Hey guys , been a while since i posted here but i wanted to give an update
I've finished the 4th year of my degree now . At this point i've decided just to endure through my last 2 clinical years , although i have to admit I am taking a very minimalistic approach with my exams and clinical classes now , not aiming for high grades anymore and not spending any extra time in the hospital beyond what i need to get the credit for my class. I admit its a waste of time but at the end of the day i will get my degree and move on . I;ve already told my parents about my decision and apologized for wasting their money.
my main reason for just continuing is because i simply do not know what I would want to do if i left , i don't feel like i truly have a passion for anything yet , there are a lot of things i would like to try but there is no guarantee they would interest me in the long run (doesn;t stop me thinking about 'what if' scenario's all the time), so i might as well just continue and get something out of the time i've invested here. like someone previously said , there is no point in burning this bridge just to burn another one later on.
my uni unfortunately does not offer a a intercalated bsc , so that was never an option . something to keep in mind for people wanting to apply abroad , there is really no safety net once you get too far into your degree.
admittedly one big misconception i had about medical school was that it is some sort of magical machine that automatically gives you the skill set to become a doctor. now i have realised that truly is not the case, my personality never aligned with what is expected of a doctor and still doesn;t, rather than pursuing something that played to my strength , i did the exact opposite by going into medicine. Reaching the tail end of my degree i realise ive spent so much of my time pretending to be interested in medicine and what it means to be a doctor , but in reality i find it all boring and don;t think i ever truly was interested in it. Just something to keep in mind for people applying to uni - really think about the person you are and what YOU want to do. (as obvious as it sounds , its easy to forget sometimes).