I met this guy early last year, who I liked but who I thought didn't like me, so didn't try to make a move. We became really close friends, texting every day, seeing each other all the time etc. I put my feelings aside and that was fine, we were a bit flirty sometimes but that was it. After some time I realised my feelings had never gone away, and I needed to tell him. He meant a lot to me as a friend and I knew I risked being rejected but I had to tell him. I told him and he was taken aback, said he liked me when we first met but didn't think I liked him, was scared to trust someone again, etc. Anyway this uncertainty carried on for a further two weeks, and at one point we stopped talking because I couldn't continue to be friends.
When we weren't talking he got back in touch and wanted to talk, then when we met he told me he really liked me and wanted to be with me. I was a bit cautious but happy because i could really see a future with him and so we made it official.
For a month everything was great, but then it seemed like one day things changed and he would make less effort to see me and talk to me. We did have a hiccup about something but it wasn't something that was going to break us up, and it happened after his behaviour changed, not before. Eventually after not seeing him for a week i told him how i felt over a text and that i couldn't continue if he wasn't going to make more of an effort, at this point his behaviour had been like it for a few weeks. He basically agreed with me that he couldn't and I just couldn't believe that was it. I wanted to see him and so asked him if he could pick up his things and hoped he would at least see me to give me an explanation, or something... but nothing. He basically said goodbye in a text and that was it, and I was so hurt that I just refused to even reply.
I just don't still understand how someone who I considered a best friend first, before boyfriend, could treat me that way. And even now (it happened before christmas) I'm thinking about him daily and wondering what the hell happened. I thought he would at least have the decency to be upfront with me in the first place, talk to me in person, or even not get with me in the first place and tell me he wanted to stay friends if that's all he wanted?
I have heard nothing and he is on tinder apparently, which makes me feel awful, like it was just me, not anything else. My friends tell me to forget it but it's not that easy. He was so important to me and I have so many questions unanswered. I'm sorry i'm blabbing on now. I still have his number and I keep thinking if i should text him and ask him to be honest in what went on his end. Is that ever a good idea or is leaving it and always wondering what if is the best thing? I wouldn't care if it was just someone I dated but we were friends first and it hurts so much still