I must agree with Tiny92 - the majority of people on this thread would be happy to give you advice, but not if you hijack the pupillage thread. Related topics are accepted by most on here, such as BPTC applications or Inn scholarships, but advice on an individual's chances and state of mind is going a bit far, unless it relates directly to pupillage, which it appears your posts don't. Start a new thread, and then you might get more responses. Good luck