Hey guys,
So me and my ex split up at the beginning of January (i did the dumping) due to the fact she was constantly being distant, we were always arguing and it seemed that everytime I opened up to her about one of my issues in life she would just turn it into an argument all the time, she suffers from anxiety and depression so I figured it was best for both of us to break up and focus on ourselves.
I regretted the break up a few days later and we agreed to work on it together to try and fix things, she in the end decided that she was happier going out and seeing her friends and that she needed to focus on herself, but offered the opportunity to be friends, which I declined.
A week or so later she rang me at half 2 in the morning in tears, going on about how much she missed me, how she went out the week before and she burst into tears when some guy approached her and how her sex drive doesn't exist anymore pretty much, we had about a 2 and a half hour conversation full of nostalgia, she told me that she missed me and that she loves me still.
To this I responded with taking a month or so away from each other, and then maybe we'll be able to come back in time as either friends or maybe we can work something out if we feel that way, she said she could do that and we'll see what happens, we had an emotional goodbye on the phone and I thought that was that.
The next day (first day of no contact) she messages me, trying to talk to me and i'm basically like look can we just do this and leave each other alone for a bit so we can get our heads straight, to which she threw a massive tantrum, started replying sarcastically, deleted and blocked me off everything and deleted all of our photos in instagram. So the last time we spoke we essentially an argument.
It's been almost a month since we last spoke, I have removed her family and friends off Facebook due to them not really being my problem anymore. However I heard through a mutual friend that she was going on about how she has no friends, how the people at work are too old for her to hang out with and how her school friends and everyone else has drifted away and how she shouldn't have ever been with me because she's been left with nothing after.
Let it be known that when we were together i always encouraged her to go out, see her friends, if we she wanted to see me too then we could all plan something together, if me and her ever went to the cinema or whatever they were always invited. Yet i'm being blamed for her loss of friends? I feel bad, I still want this girl back despite everything but it seems like she resents me for a reason I can't quite understand. We haven't spoken for a month now, i'm starting to doubt whether i'll even hear from her again. But I feel bad and I don't really know what to do?
Any help would be amazing.
Cheers