[Trigger warning] Someone to talk to

Hi, I have browsed on this forum a few times in the past but only just created an account and this is my first post. I am currently an inpatient at Camhs having been referred there after this

2013 - Decided to take up running as a hobby
2014 - Hospitalised with weight loss after combination of too much exercise and viruses. Weight restored to 55kg on Ensure Plus shakes and was 48 on hospitalisation.
2015 - Began running again most days and because I was bored with exam over in the summer I began walking as well. I joined a gym in October of 2015 and only ever used the treadmill for thirty minutes a day but this became part of a routine and I felt as though I had to get that fix and if I had the time later on (due to being bored) then I would go out again for a walk. When walking I would usually go out for 2-3 miles
2016 - Weight dropped to 41kg in approximately a year from 55kg represcribed ensure plus shakes and cut out all physical activity but still could not gain weight and I told the go that I was almost addicted to walking and running

The thing is though is that I have never thought that I have had an ED - In fact I still ate loads and did not restrict anything but was losing weight purely as I was way too active and could not find anything else to do outside of studying. I had no intentions to lose weight and never noticed the damage that I was doing to my body as I never paid attention to body image and was just enjoying exercise. So I certainly was overexercising but not for the reasons that most might think. My weight has been restored to 52kg so far and my height is 1.7 metres and has been all of this time. I had been struggling to focus at school and have suffered with leg cramps due to my condition but Camhs is teaching me to be restful which I am doing on my own now although it is uncomfortable to sit which results in me standing a lot but again not for the reasons that most people think. I am hoping to be discharged soon so that I can sit my exams and if not I will have to do them in the hospital and any of those involving coursework I will not be able to sit if I do not get out soon (the next couple of weeks) I have been managing all of my meal plan as well which was never going to be a problem as it is staying restful which is hard.

Awwww. So you're in hospital right now? my heart goes out to you and keep fighting ! Don't worry about extra pressure of coursework and focus on getting better- the work stuff can wait and your health is the priority.

Have you ever had your thyroid tested btw ? Because eating loads and still losing, irrelevant of your activity could be indicative of an overactive thyroid and trust me I get synthetic hyperthyroidism (or overactive thyroid) from when I have too much thyroid hormone replacement because I am clinically under active (sorry if that sounds complicated). But anyway my weight plummets and my insomnia worsens and I cannot simply be 'restful'. I would highly recommend you get your thyroid hormones checked just to be sure.

It seems kind of sad as the presentation of your ED appears to be more physical than psychological and to me, ED is a psychological problem. But how do you feel around food and eating and do you mind eating if you haven't exercised and also how do you feel if you can't exercise ?