best friend betrayed me!!!

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hey guys, i hope you are all doing well

so me and my "best friend" were friends ever since primary school. we were just like sisters we did everything together. i just loved her to bits, but something big happened that changed everything. Me and my boyfriend were together for five years now, since we were 18 ,so yeah a pretty long time and i just recently found out that he was sleeping with her, and you would never guess where i caught them ! IN MY BEDROOM!!!!! i was away for a whole day to look after mum who was ill at the time, so they took advantage of this, i came back after a long day and i see them on top of each other in my BED . so i asked them what they were doing and they admitted they were sleeping together and it has been going on for a while now. they told me they were in a " relationship" for three months and it's not the first time they have slept together and they have been hooking up for a long time (now i know why my boyfriend has been acting so weird) so i ran out of the house crying. i just couldn't handle the betrayal. so after a day or two my "friend" called and asked if we could speak about this. At first i was reluctant but then after a lot of convincing i agreed. so i confronted her and she told me she's "sorry" ( but she wasn't very sincere) as for my boyfriend he called me a number of times but i refused to talk to him and haven't spoken to him since.i am even more hurt that my best friend could do this to me, i think this would have been much easier to cope with if it was someone else! i really don't know what to do, shall i forgive them. i am hurting so much that i have been drinking to cope. i am in a mess, is life even worth living anymore? i really need help i don't know what to do or who to turn to!! sorry for the long post '

Wow this really is a nightmare situation for you. If you want to talk to someone on here you can PM me. I think you can lose your Boyfriend or you "best friend", but not both at once. I know your best friend hurt you, and you have been betrayed by her. However you couldn't handle losing both of them from your life at the same time. So I would drop your Boyfriend from your life and stay friends with your "best friend", until you can find someone else to be your new best friend.

She already lost them, it's their fault, anything less is weak.

What?

A friend does not sleep with a friend's boyfriend. She has no friends.

I don't care about them, I care about the OP. If she loses her boyfriend and "best friend" at the same time she loses all her emotional support. That would cause her more pain than she could handle. She need to maintain some sort of emotional support, as she takes the time to friend other people.

Emotional support from the girl who is shagging your boyfriend? Not sure if srs

You can't just drop your feelings for people like that, it takes time.

You can't just drop your feelings for people like that, it takes time.

Weak weak weak

It does but you shouldn't keep those people in your life

I agree, but calling someone weak doesn't help them does it.

I agree, but it takes time to remove people from your life.