Thanks for the replies. I know chitty chatting about it won't sort the problem. I was just looking for a bit of a boost to help/support me.
I could have posted 'Anon' but chose not to.
Yeah, that completely exposes me as a person who is having a bit of a difficult time and if I say that I'm really emotional right now (very tearful) I don't think that makes me a bad or weak person but hey ho. 👀