I just can't fake it anymore

I'm tired of pretending to be happy. But as a result I don't talk to people anymore and have grown distant with everyone.

I just wish I was the same optimistic 18 year old I used to be. I honestly don't see the point in living anymore. If I didn't have my religion or care about my family. I'd be dead long ago. I just want to be my old self again and get that social life I used to have. And not be constantly miserable.

Are you upset with something?

What's changed?

Me. I've become constantly pessimistic and quiet. I'm not fun anymore, and I don't enjoy anything in life anymore.

Do you know why?

Myself. I just hate the way I am so much. I can never do anything right and **** up at everything.

I'm tired of pretending to be happy. But as a result I don't talk to people anymore and have grown distant with everyone.

I just wish I was the same optimistic 18 year old I used to be. I honestly don't see the point in living anymore. If I didn't have my religion or care about my family. I'd be dead long ago. I just want to be my old self again and get that social life I used to have. And not be constantly miserable.

It's okay to make mistakes and f*** things up. You're learning. Let the past go and work on the present. Things will get better if you work on them.

Oh I know how you feel OP.
But you have to realise that you are still quite young. It's okay to mess up. It's a part of growing up and becoming wiser
Try to do things you enjoy, whether it's school, a hobby you like to do. Anything you want really. Just go into something you enjoy. (If you don't know, there's no harm in trying out new things ).
Just something that makes you feel happy with yourself. It will take time but I can tell you it will be okay sooner than you might think. .
You might feel constrained and restricted, but you can break free, you can. Have faith in yourself. Believe in yourself. Honestly, once you do. The heavy weight just feels like it's been lifted off.

I hope you realise that you are a someone OP, someone special. So never forget that.

For a brief moment, I thought I made this thread. (':

I am in a *similar* situation + can highly relate to parts of the OP, I hope you feel better soon.

I'm tired of pretending to be happy. But as a result I don't talk to people anymore and have grown distant with everyone.

I just wish I was the same optimistic 18 year old I used to be. I honestly don't see the point in living anymore. If I didn't have my religion or care about my family. I'd be dead long ago. I just want to be my old self again and get that social life I used to have. And not be constantly miserable.

Ive been like this for over a year. Ive been diagnosed with depression, but my dad says to stop being such a woman. And mum either ignores or keep asking "why?" The thing is i dont know why, it seems like everything. I just feel like such a waste of space.

I'm tired of pretending to be happy. But as a result I don't talk to people anymore and have grown distant with everyone.

I just wish I was the same optimistic 18 year old I used to be. My religion and my care about my family are the things that keep me going. I just want to be my old self again and get that social life I used to have. And not be constantly miserable.

Ive been like this for over a year. Ive been diagnosed with depression, but my dad says to stop being such a woman. And mum either ignores or keep asking "why?" The thing is i dont know why, it seems like everything. I just feel like such a waste of space.

Ive been like this for over a year. Ive been diagnosed with depression, but my dad says to stop being such a woman. And mum either ignores or keep asking "why?" The thing is i dont know why, it seems like everything. I just feel like such a waste of space.

Are you upset with something?