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I'm more than just a number - Story of a french med student who failed and raised up

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Reply 580

FrenchUnicorn

Hi guys

! Time for part 8 :yep:

So, I finally decided I won't talk AT ALL about the semester 1, because really, I have nothing to say except I did a really good job and had really good grades at my mocks. Same for the Day-D, all you have to know is that I was feeling much more confident about myself, and I will never ever regret a single day of this semester. Because I gave my best.

Why Unicorn wants to be a doctor.
I never talked about it properly, here we go. There are a lot of reasons, some are little, some are bigger. One of the little reasons is that I had appendicitis when I was 12 so I started to become obsessed with hospitals. A kid's dream you know ^.^ !

The BIG reason is the following. When I was 14, I had a little accident, I almost died, and it changed everything.

I was riding a horse in the mountains, and when I ride there I enjoy looking at the void in the ravines you know. Well a quad came and my horse has been scared, he reared, I almost fell down on the ravine, the horse was running on the path really close to it. I was hanging out so hard to the reins, but I was sliding toward the void a bit more each second.
I was hanging for my life.
I was scared.
So scared.
The void.
So close.
So ****ing close.
With my right hand I was holding to the reins, and with the left one to the saddle. I could not do that for long. My hands were sweating.

I released.

I fell down, and not even in the ravine.
Not.
In.
The.
Ravine.
I felt a pain in my back, and when I opened my eyes , I was on the grass, a few hikers around me. I was alive.
ALIVE.

I don't know if you realise but when I released I thought I would die. The hikers called the emergency services. I noticed after a few minutes that I was bleeding a bit here and there (in the back, the arms, the legs). I didn't care at all. I was alive.

At hospital, but alive. When the doctors said I had some broken vertebra, I got scared, as they told to my parents that someone would have to check my legs every 20min to verify that I was not losing sensibility.What an awful feeling. You can't forget such a thing.

When Unicorn put all her hopes into the doctors, when she realised how much doctors were dedicated to their patients, her dream became stronger.

1 day passed, my legs were saved. I spent one week to hospital, and I'll never forget this week. The doctors did not even save my life. But when I could get up and walk, the doctors smiled.

That smile.
Unforgettable. Truly unforgettable.

I remember a lot of things in my life, but some of them are worth remembering. I'll smile like that to my patients one day. I promise.

The meaning of life.
Refer here for the result day.

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When you're young, you want to have good grades, to have a great job, to gain money, to live. And your whole life is kinda dedicated to a goal : living. Sounds weird to write it down, but it's true. We wanna live !

But sometimes we forgot how to do it.

During 2 years of my ****ing life I forgot how to live. And when I failed, everything became so different.I've been offered a place for dentistery/pharmacy/physio/midwifery. It took me three days to think about it, then I dropped out uni. To follow my real dream. To live.

I applied abroad. I have to pass some entrance examinations, and as I did the 1st year of med, I already know all of the requirements. Of course I still revise, but I have time. Time to live.I planned to travel. Right now I can book a flight without worrying about anything. I called it Life. Because Life is what is supposed to make you happy.

My failure was my escape. My happiness. My life.

My first exams are in one month, and I'm living, waiting for it. I planned 5 travels in 4 months. I can read every book I want without a single pressure. I plan to live 6 years in Prague, then I'll move to the US. And maybe even New Zealand.My failure released me from a boring life.

I'm free.

I'm alive.

I am happy. :h:

Thanks for reading :heart:

guys now I'll take a break from this blog until my exams, because there is nothing to tell about me right now - unless you ask for something of course - and I'll be back here after my exams, to keep you in touch with everything :h:

. I love you <3

Matrix I am SO GRATEFUL for the time you took to correct me, Je t'aime :heart:

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Reply 581

the bear

good luck with les examens Unicorne !!!

Reply 582

Rhythmical

@FrenchUnicorn omg your post makes me want to cry :frown:

knowing that you wanted to become a doctor due to the experiences in your life, shows how amazing you are. You never gave up and bounced back! And the fact that you want to repay your doctors by saving patients lives, well there is no greater deed. I love how determined you are to travel and become a stronger person.

Hugs :lovehug:

Reply 583

Andy98

Crikey!

Good luck with the exams

Reply 584

FrenchUnicorn

Original post by the bear

good luck with les examens Unicorne !!!

Merci bear :kiss:

Original post by Rhythmical

@FrenchUnicorn omg your post makes me want to cry :frown:

knowing that you wanted to become a doctor due to the experiences in your life, shows how amazing you are. You never gave up and bounced back!

Thank you

Original post by Rhythmical

And the fact that you want to repay your doctors by saving patients lives, well there is no greater deed.

This. This made my day. Thank you SO MUCH, it means a lot <3 :hugs:

Original post by Rhythmical

I love how determined you are to travel and become a stronger person.

Hugs :lovehug:

ty again <3 you are AT LEAST as stronger than I am ma chérie :heart:

Reply 585

Matrix123

Original post by FrenchUnicorn

Awwww this was a lovely post, and my favourite so far I think. It's shocking how much you went through at just 12 and 14 years old! :eek:

I'm glad you managaed to get through that well and that there were those doctors there who bviously did a great job.

Good luck with everything :heart:

Btw it's:

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Reply 586

FrenchUnicorn

Original post by Andy98

Crikey!

Good luck with the exams

Thanks Andy :heart:

Reply 587

hezzlington

Original post by FrenchUnicorn

Hi guys

! Time for part 8 :yep:

I read all the bits in bold first to see if there was like, a secret encrypted message :P

Frenchie what an incredible read. So glad to hear your injury didn't result in a significantly worse life threatening incident. I can relate to your second chapter so much. Really resonates with me :smile:

Good read!

X

Reply 588

Rhythmical

Original post by FrenchUnicorn

Merci bear :kiss:

Thank you

This. This made my day. Thank you SO MUCH, it means a lot <3 :hugs:

ty again <3 you are AT LEAST as stronger than I am ma chérie :heart:

ily <3 And just remember, you become a person through getting through the weaknesses and the knock backs in life, it makes you stronger and I have so much respect for you. And thank you, you inspire me.

Reply 589

FrenchUnicorn

Original post by Matrix123

Awwww this was a lovely post, and my favourite so far I think. It's shocking how much you went through at just 12 and 14 years old! :eek:

I'm glad you managaed to get through that well and that there were those doctors there who bviously did a great job.

Good luck with everything :heart:

Btw it's:

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As usual, thanks again for all :heart:

Appendicitis was not a big deal, but the accident was, and each time I doubt, I remember the feelings I had at hospital, and I tell myself to never give up. A lot of people can't understand that, but I'm glad you do :heart:

I just edited my post :yep:

Reply 590

Andy98

Original post by FrenchUnicorn

Thanks Andy :heart:

It's nothing. Glad the injury wasn't worse. And I know what it's like trying to be a better person because of the influence someone else had on you. :hugs:

Reply 591

FrenchUnicorn

Original post by hezzlington

Good read!

X

There is not , but thanks for the idea, maybe in my next post :lol:

Thanks

I'm glad you relate :yep:

it means you can understand me :h:

what I wanted to say to everyone is just : LIVE. But I see you already noticed that :yep:

Original post by Rhythmical

Je t'aime aussi :heart:

You're soooo right .. And this is why you're such a lovely and amazing person today :wink:

I inspire you, you inspire me, what a great deal ! :five:

Reply 592

Matrix123

Original post by FrenchUnicorn

As usual, thanks again for all :heart:

I just edited my post :yep:

Aww you're welcome, Licorne :hugs:

Yeah, I haven't ever experienced anything as serious as that but I can definitely relate to a lot of your post :yep:

Thanks for inspiring me again :jumphug:

Oh yes I just saw. And you really don't have to mention me each time :colondollar:

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Reply 593

FrenchUnicorn

Original post by Andy98

It's nothing. Glad the injury wasn't worse. And I know what it's like trying to be a better person because of the influence someone else had on you. :hugs:

I have no physical aftereffect of the injury, but I still have to deal with a post-traumatic stress - nightmares of falling, fear of heights , stuff like that - but I'll get through it, as usual :h:

Ty <3. Yes, we should try to be a bit more better each day :yep:

Reply 594

FrenchUnicorn

Original post by Matrix123

Aww you're welcome, Licorne :hugs:

Yeah, I haven't ever experienced anything as serious as that but I can definitely relate to a lot of your post :yep:

Thanks for inspiring me again :jumphug:

Oh yes I just saw. And you really don't have to mention me each time :colondollar:

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What I meant by you understand, is that you think I have good reasons to be a doctor because of what happened , which is perfect :h:

YW, thanks for reading :kiss:

Of course I have to omg, it's my only way to thank you ! :jumphug:

Reply 595

Andy98

Original post by FrenchUnicorn

I have no physical aftereffect of the injury, but I still have to deal with a post-traumatic stress - nightmares of falling, fear of heights , stuff like that - but I'll get through it, as usual :h: