Hi guys ! Time for
part 8 So, I finally decided I won't talk AT ALL about the
semester 1, because really, I have nothing to say except I did a
really good job and had really
good grades at my mocks. Same for the
Day-D, all you have to know is that I was feeling much more
confident about myself, and
I will never ever regret a single day of this semester. Because I gave my best.
Why Unicorn wants to be a doctor. I never talked about it properly, here we go. There are a lot of
reasons, some are
little, some are
bigger. One of the little reasons is that I had
appendicitis when I was
12 so I started to become obsessed with
hospitals. A
kid's dream you know ^.^ !
The
BIG reason is the following. When I was
14, I had an little
accident, I almost died, and it changed
everything.
I was riding a
horse in the
mountains, and when I ride there I enjoy looking at the
void in the
ravines you know. Well a
quad came and my horse has been
scared, he
reared, I almost fell down on the ravine, the horse was
running on the path really close to it. I was
hanging out so hard to the
reins, but I was sliding
toward the void a bit more each second.
I was hanging for my life. I was
scared.
So
scared.
The
void.
So
close.
So ****ing
close.
With my right hand I was holding to the
reins, and with the left one to the
saddle. I could not do that for long. My hands were
sweating.
I released.
I
fell down, and not even in the ravine.
Not. In. The. Ravine. I felt a pain in my
back, and when I opened my eyes , I was on the
grass, a few
hikers around me. I was
alive.
ALIVE.
I don't know if you realise but when I released I thought I would
die. The hikers called the
emergency services. I noticed after a few minutes that I was
bleeding a bit here and there (in the back, the arms, the legs). I
didn't care at all. I was
alive.
At
hospital, but
alive. When the
doctors said I had some
broken vertebra, I got
scared, as they told to my parents that someone would have to
check my legs every
20min to verify that I was not losing
sensibility.What an
awful feeling. You
can't forget such a thing.
When
Unicorn put all her
hopes into the
doctors, when she realised how much
doctors were dedicated to their
patients, her
dream became
stronger.
1 day passed, my legs were
saved. I spent
one week to hospital, and I'll never forget this week. The
doctors did not even save my life. But when I could
get up and
walk, the
doctors smiled.
That
smile.
Unforgettable. Truly
unforgettable.
I remember a lot of things in my life, but some of them are
worth remembering. I'll smile like that to my patients one day.
I promise.
The meaning of life. Refer here for the
result day.
When you're
young, you want to have
good grades, to have a
great job, to gain
money, to
live. And your whole life is kinda dedicated to a
goal :
living. Sounds weird to write it down, but it's
true.
We wanna live !
But sometimes we
forgot how to do it.
During
2 years of my ****ing life I forgot how to live. And when I
failed, everything became so
different.I've been offered a place for
dentistery/pharmacy/physio/midwifery. It took me
three days to think about it, then I
dropped out uni. To follow
my real dream. To
live.
I applied
abroad. I have to pass some
entrance examinations, and as I did the
1st year of med, I already know all of the
requirements. Of course I still revise, but I have time.
Time to live.I planned to
travel. Right now I can book a
flight without worrying about anything.
I called it Life. Because
Life is what is supposed to make you happy. My
failure was my
escape. My
happiness. My
life.
My first exams are in one month, and I'm
living, waiting for it. I planned
5 travels in
4 months. I can read every
book I want without a single pressure. I plan to live
6 years in
Prague, then I'll move to the
US. And maybe even
New Zealand.
My failure released me from a boring life. I'm
free.
I'm
alive.
I am happy. Thanks for reading guys now I'll
take a break from this blog until my exams, because there is
nothing to tell about me right now -
unless you ask for something of course - and I'll be back here after my exams, to
keep you in touch with everything
.
I love you <3 Matrix I am SO GRATEFUL for the time you took to correct me, Je t'aime