Hey guys, as the title indicates, i broke up with my girlfriend of four years 2 weeks ago, i found out recently she had cheated on me 8 times throughout our relationship, she was always very cold towards me and very snide.
She would text me two or three times throughout the day at times, however when i was with her she always had her phone in her hand, to start off with for the first time,
She had gone out drinking with a friend and on that occasion saw someone she went to school with, she then went outside the pub with him and had sex with him, she was wearing a long dress however claimed it was a *Mistake*
Second Time, she met up with another guy they went to mcdonalds, he took her to the stables too see his horses, and they then had sex in his car
Third time, we had an argument, another friend of hers inboxed her asking her if she was okay, then then agreed to meet up where he then took her back to his and, surprise surprise, had sex with her.
Fourth time, she went out clubbing and saw ANOTHER Male friend where they started dancing and she started kissing him, then she went outside the club and got fingered by him
Fifth time sixth time and eighth time i had had enough at this point of feeling like there were many secrets, checked her phone, she had sent dirty pictures, texts and videos
It's emotionally damaged me for the worst part, i gave her everything i could and i tried to make her as happy as i could, i treated her like i thought she deserved to be treated, and all of this has made me really really damaged and confused.
However i cant stop thinking about it? and she also said it was my fault it all happened.