Mental Health Support Society XVIII

No family, some friends but there are some issues I can't talk about to anyone. Yes that's true, it feels awful when someone does not understand, or, even worse, trivializes an issue you're dealing with.

I honestly think fitting in is just an act most of the time. It's easier for some because they are better actors and actresses, cultural and language barriers aside.

Second (well, first) year officially over!

Ahh yeah, I know what you mean. I have very few people that I can talk to about things. Have you been to your GP or thought about having therapy? It may help you Yep, completely agree. Unfortunately, it happens too much

You are probably right. I just see so many people that seem to fit right in with other people that it's annoying and upsetting that I try so hard and still can't. Obviously, life is more than just 'fitting in' with others though.

I didn't know it costs £33 to get a doctor's note. What's a someone who has been struggling with depression supposed to do if I can't get evidence to support my deadline extension request because it's too costly for a student?

I will push through and meet the deadline like I always do but it might not be the best work I can produce.

I was just thinking about my mental health, the reason I stopped drinking and cant take any drugs is all they do is give me a rush of adrenaline or whatever and when that feelings gone I feel worse than before I even took it.

When I used to feel normal (which was when I had low self esteem but enjoyed life) I had a permanent adrenaline feeling though not to extremes so I could go to corner shop and feel a little ticklish (so thats why I assume adrenaline) and very minor giggles as in I would smile and every now and again would make a sound like "heh" even when playing a video game my heart would beat faster and my feet would start tapping faster and faster.

Sometimes I was so excited I would literally just make strange sounds like "yay" "woo" as my body was so tickish/tingly.

Though that may be more due to the fact I am mildly autistic.

In recent years I have not felt that once, well I have felt some of those symptoms but not the whole picture.

I thought they were free
I'd still invest in it if at all possible, and if it makes a positive difference, because what is £33 compared to the 9k you're paying for each year your degree.

I thought so too, until today.

I'm doing a postgrad now so it's 6k but you're right; seems worth it so will see what I can do

Yeah, in fact I went over to speak to a counsellor very recently for the first time in a long time. Didn't seem to understand and wouldn't let me speak as much, which I can forgive as she may have been rushed/having a bad day, but also outright told me that I didn't need any counselling, which was a dealbreaker... So, I've made a new appointment and requested a different counsellor.

That happens to me too. What's changed that's made you less able to fit in on tsr?

Anyone else find it so hard to stay in contact with people? I have a few close friends and whenever they text, I always feel bad because I can't keep a convo going these days. I either feel too drained to reply or forget and that's not like me, I used to text 24/7. That only adds to the guilt and then makes me feel even more bloody drained and less likely to reply.

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Anyone else find it so hard to stay in contact with people? I have a few close friends and whenever they text, I always feel bad because I can't keep a convo going these days. I either feel too drained to reply or forget and that's not like me, I used to text 24/7. That only adds to the guilt and then makes me feel even more bloody drained and less likely to reply.

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Don't normally post stuff like this but how do people deal with self-loathing? I always hate myself and always have done but for some reason it's so much more intense at the minute and don't really know what to do. It doesn't help that my physical health is (even more!) completely screwed so I can't even distract myself, just constantly doing bad stuff and really wanting to do worse.

Don't normally post stuff like this but how do people deal with self-loathing? I always hate myself and always have done but for some reason it's so much more intense at the minute and don't really know what to do. It doesn't help that my physical health is (even more!) completely screwed so I can't even distract myself, just constantly doing bad stuff and really wanting to do worse.

I wish I could give you advice because I am pretty well rehearsed in self loathing, but I have still not figured out how to deal with it myself. Big hugs though

This suggestion won't necessarily work but it's a nice thing to do anyway: if you feel comfortable doing this and can explain to your friends why you're asking them to do this, ask your friends, family and other loved ones to write why they like/love you. Then put it all together in a scrapbook, perhaps with pictures!

The idea behind the suggestion is to have hardcore evidence to hand, to ward off any negative thoughts/self-loathing/voices, etc