Im a Muslim girl and really let myself down

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It's natural to go somewhere else to feel valued if your not feeling valued from family/friends.
You've realized your mistake Alhamdulillah look forward now iA, we make mistakes to learn from them. Make dua sister, pour your heart out to Allah. Our lord is too merciful he will overlook this definitely iA
Just remember people are not what they seem, don't trust too easy x

I'm sorry but what the hell ? how can you say what god will or won't overlook ? your not god so you don't know that and saying you know his thoughts is a sin sister

Which is why I said "iA" immediately after which means if Allah wills. I really don't want to argue about this.

If you weren't part of Islam then this would not be a problem for you, think about that

So a while back I was in a real bad place. I was a loner at university which was hard for me and I had so many worries about life and can truly say no one was there for me anymore.

I used to be quite devout and prayed several times a day and generally had good faith. One night when things were getting too much for me I went online and joined a chatroom. For the first time ever I put a picture of myself without hijab in hopes more people will talk to me. Surely the sleazy guys there talked to me. It was not my intention to attract guys but i thought it would get me attention in general.

Anyway time went on and i used the site to vent my problems and i came accross an extreamly friendly guy. Fast forward i begin talking to this guy everyday. Soon i realise he was smooth talking womanizer. The pit I was in at the time meant i held on to talking to him as i had no one else like me the way he did. He only valued women for their looks physically and this became clear to me. However as saddened i was about this i thought i could keep talking to him and not let that get to me. Eventually he persuaded me to do all sorts over skype! Im talking stripping yes. Im being totally honest here because he took away the basic concept of modesty I had as a Muslim and I am shocked by that. I realise I have strayed so much. When this guy no longer talked to me I was actually starting to look for a relationship in real life and felt like I no longer had boundaries. I was not able to accept why this guy no longer talked to me after a year of talking ( at nights only).i still find the experiennce traumatizing.
I feel horrible being like this and so far away from who I was. I dont have many Muslim friends and honestly dont know what to do to feel connected to Islam again amd the joy I once had of being a Muslim and proud to cover herself and not be objectified by a guy.i dont feel part of a muslim community even though my family follows islam. Please reply and dont judge.



Thanks

leave islam sis as it's clearly not working for you. don't let one sleazy guy make you think theyre all like that because their are a lot of sleazy muslim men and many of them hit on me even when i wore hijab. realise that their ain't nothing bad about having sexual relationships with boys as long as you weren't forced into it of course.

lol what a useless post

srsly is the best you islamophobes can do is to tell a muslim to leave their religion?

OP God is all forgiving, try not to look back at the past and work yourself to become a better muslim

x

leave islam sis as it's clearly not working for you. don't let one sleazy guy make you think theyre all like that because their are a lot of sleazy muslim men and many of them hit on me even when i wore hijab. realise that their ain't nothing bad about having sexual relationships with boys as long as you weren't forced into it of course.

DO NOT LEAVE ISLAM. This is completely wrong , Wow. I'm sorry but literally I'm blown away. Do not listen to this anon.

Life is a test don't let one guy ruin it get on the deen again!

she obviously loves the dick too much

don't you start. she obviously hates Islam and is going to leave using test excuse is bollox and just traps ppl, like islam really