Found erotic stories boyfriend had written about Ex and other girl he knows

Around two weeks ago I was on google drive trying to find something, becuase my boyfriend and I regularly sign onto each others devices on youtube etc. it was signed onto his google drive and I did not realise. As I looked through it I found some erotic very in detail stories about him and his Ex as well as him and another he knows. This made me feel really sick and betrayed, especially as I have found old pictures of them together on his phone and have been upset ( we have talked about this many times and he deleted them, but knew this kind of thing made me very upset). The stories were all written when we were in a relationship, and some had only recently been made or edited, so I knew he kept going back to them ):. We've been together for almost three years, both 22 and I really did not expect anything like this from him. We've talked about getting married and having a future together and when I found them, this idea completely left my head and I just felt everything so far was a complete lie. I talked to him about the situation and breaking up, and he said that it was complete fantasy and he would never do those things, or think like that about anybody else. I am trying to forgive him, sometimes I forget it ever happened, and other times like this it just comes to mind and I feel worthless. I really don't know if I'm overreacting about this, any insight from a clear mind would be helpful. What would you do in this situation?

God, that must have been so terrible and unexpected. I'm sorry that had to happen to you. Honestly, I would talk to him about it. In a relationship, communication is so important and if you don't let your feelings out in a calm manner they might just keep building up until you do something you'll regret.

I can't say whether or not this was acceptable on his behalf. I write myself and ever since I fell in love with my boyfriend almost three years ago, the male love interest has always been centered around him in one way or another so I couldn't imagine writing something like that about anyone other than him. That is not to say that he doesn't care about you. If you've talked seriously about marriage and your future together, he clearly is committed to you. However, you still haven't been able to forgive him for it which means it still needs addressing as it is clearly upsetting you and diminishing your sense of self worth. Maybe try talking about it once more with him. He says he loves you and would never act on his fantasies but it is your choice whether or not you can accept him for what he is, as it was his choice to accept you for your perfections and your flaws and still decide he wanted to think about a future with you.

P.S. No man, no matter how much you love them, should make you feel worthless. If he loves you as much as it sounds like he does, he wouldn't have done this with that purpose in mind.

Also, I'm just curious about what these documents were called to make you so interested to open them?!

They were untitled, I don't have much experience with google docs and google so I was just checking what they were, and thought I hadn't titled them