I want my ex-boyfriend back

You should just go for it, tell him exactly how you feel and if he doesn't feel the same way don't let him waste your time. I thought I was in love but it was just an attraction (eye candy, I suppose) because I'd crushed on someone for so long - you have to make sure it's real and your feelings aren't deceiving you. You have to stay true to yourself and remember that even if he doesn't feel the way he used to feel about you when you went out that you don't NEED anyone to make you happy. He might just be nervous because he's afraid that you'll hurt him again, because he was upset that you broke up with him and he doesn't want to go through those emotions all over again. Stay true to you and be as truthful as possible with him - ideally speak to him in person. Perhaps in the party he said "Shall we?" to that girl because he was off his head, and we all say silly things we don't mean when we're drunk. As you say, everyone was hammered so it must have been the heat of the moment type of thing. Remember not to get too hung up on him if he doesn't feel that way again - you might be in love with him but it might be a strong attraction.

I don't know what to say. But tbh it was interesting reading the story. Btw the feeling you might have for him might not be love but more so infatuation.

Hey! Firstly, thank you so so much for replying to this, and for reading my massive essay haha!
Basically, I forgot to mention this but about a week before the party I told him that I was really sorry that I hurt him. I didn't exactly say that I wanted to get back together with him but he got the jist and explained that 'we could try again after exams'.
I agree with you about him maybe being nervous to get back together because he seemed really hurt last time. I just wish I never broke up with him! I've recently found out he has tinder and I sent him a snap chat today and he never replied. I don't want to seem desperate but I want him to understand that I still like him.
I would prefer, as you mentioned, to speak to him in person but I'm doing GCSEs so in not at school so I basically don't see him, and I won't see him until prom which is at the end of this month. He's coming to mine for pre-prom because we're still quite good friends.. He's even coming as the only one from his friendship group! (This made me think he may still like me).

He used to get nervous when I spoke to him, and he still does, but recently I've noticed him staring at my best friend. I would just LOVE to get inside his head and know what he's thinking. He likes to act very confident and I feel like he's putting a wall up because he doesn't like showing emotions.

I don't wanna speak to him seriously over text message, but that would be my only option at the moment.
This is all messing with my head so much😩😩. I've never like a boy so much! I've been in past relationships and I have always been the one to end it, but I've never regretted it. It's just different with him...

Yeh, I really hope it's just because he was drunk when he said 'shall we?'...

I don't know whether I want to love him or not -all I know is that I can't stop thinking about him, and whatever I do I can't help it.
Also, I am moving schools next year; he only recently found this out. We started messaging a lot and he started putting kisses etc on his texts and then when I told him I was moving he stopped the kisses and became blunt - maybe he just doesn't want a girlfriend at a different school?
Thank you so so much for your reply and your advice, it has helped me to think differently and more positively about the situation!
And thank you for saying that I don't need anyone to make me happy, thank you😉!

You're welcome! My advice would be to keep trying to drop hints and remember it's not too late (even if you did make the mistake of breaking up with him). Maybe he's staring at your friend because he's confused - his emotions are all jumbled up because he doesn't know how he feels anymore and everything might just be piling in on him. If you do have a strong attraction to him (and the feelings are mutual) then he should be willing to make the effort to date you even if you both go to different schools! I hope everything does work out for you, if it doesn't then remember there will always be other guys and you'll find one that'll make you happier than ever before (so cheesy but I try to think like this ahaha)

Hmm so sorry that you're in this questionable state, but I hope my reply can help you in some way or another.
I'm a boy so I generally think like majority of the boys out there, I have not had a Girlfriend, but I've been very close to having one before the chance just blew away.

Personally, I feel as if he still has feelings attached to you. When most boys go through a break-up I've noticed through my friends that their behaviour or something about them changes. It may not be obvious, but there is may always be an effect on boys when they go through the break-up and as you have stated, You noticed his attitude towards you changed?
Of course it would as he has just broken up with you, however he gave you his coat. THE ONE SIDE OF AFFECTION.
If he wasn't going out with you on the sexual terms than I can guarantee has been scared by the break-up as much as you have come to the realisation of being emotionally broken.
Currently he is going through a phase questioning whether to go back with you or to move on and I suggest (from observing my friends), that you should try and get closer to him, realising the mistake you have made.
I know for a fact he may go back out with you.
It all falls upon the question: Are you going to be serious about it this time?

Don't play games just tell him!

Firstly, thanks so much for the reply!
And yeh, I would be serious this time. I mean, I lose sleep thinking about him!
It's really useful to hear advice from a boys perspective.. You said that you were very close to having a girlfriend.. (I obviously don't know what happened.. But did you want to become her boyfriend again after the - (close phase😂)- ended? Basically, were you still attracted to her even if she hurt you or you had a fall out?
When I broke up with him, I really tried to be, and I think I was, nice about it. I explained that maybe we should take a break and things, I didn't just dump him out of the blue won't out an explanation.. So even though I know I hurt him, I wasn't trying to? (If that makes sense)

Also, would you put your coat around a girl that you didn't like in a.. Sexual way? (If you get me😉 )

And do you find a girl moe attractive when she messages you a lot and comes up to talk to you, or is a bit more hard to get? I want him to think about me like I think about him. And I don't know whether He'll feel like that by me sending him lots of messages etc, or being a bit.. Mysterious.😂

I've sent him some snapchats here or there and he's replied to a couple, but not the last one.. I don't want to annoy him but I don't want him to forget about me.. I'm so lost😰😰😂...