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Reply 1060

Pathway

Original post by Spock's Socks

Thanks for the info :smile:

Funny enough, CPTSD is another reason why I'm getting referred to a psychologist as well as OCD and everything else because the therapist said CBT wouldn't be enough for me and she was more used to treating general anxiety and depression. Thanks, I'll keep you guys updated with everything. The doctor said I won't wait long to hear back with an appointment but I won't hold my breath :frown:

Thanks, yeah I'm feeling better now. Hope you're doing OK :hugs:

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Word of warning if you're also getting help for CPTSD on the NHS: don't get your hopes up.

I don't say this to upset you, I'm just stating a fact. I went into therapy extremely naive thinking they would help me because that is their job (and the entire point of CMHTs is to help those with complex/severe needs) and they couldn't. I was happy I was getting to work with a trauma specialist, but even she was apprehensive about working with me when I told her bits and pieces of my history when we were doing a "formulation" (hence why we didn't really work on anything) and that has probably contributed to how low I'm feeling now.

Most people with CPTSD, like myself, won't respond to tf-CBT, it wasn't developed to help complex trauma victims. It was mostly developed to help people with "simple" traumas (no shade on those with more "typically presenting" PTSD, PTSD is horrible regardless of the form, just the symptoms of CPTSD and PTSD are very different despite having a lot of similarities, consequently they need different types/levels of care). Currently, the best therapies for those who have complex trauma histories (e.g. abuses over a long period of time, many abusers, different types of abuse, etc.) are longer term talk therapies (I'm talking over a few years of therapy) to get past the effects of the trauma (with the addition of medication if possible). So you might want to look into that.

My psych. said she doesn't think tf-CBT would work for me due to how severe my dissociation can get at times and that because of said dissociation I'd be unable to properly engage with therapy as tf-CBT requires you to be very open and talk in great detail about your trauma and your thoughts/feelings surrounding it. For me talking about trauma in that level of detail required makes me dissociate because without the dissociation I'd just be having extreme flashbacks (which can also happen) so it would be pointless. Not sure if that happens to you too?

I really do hope they help you though, CPTSD is awful to live with, and whilst I don't have OCD it is obviously extremely debilitating. Don't stop fighting.

I'm not good, but thank you.

(edited 7 years ago)

Reply 1061

Airmed

Original post by Anonymous

I don't think I've introduced myself here properly despite posting a bit past few days so I'll briefly introduce myself.

Hello I'm Anxious Anon (Anon #17) and I'm a year 13 science student. I like listening to music, mainly alternative rock, and I had loads of other hobbies but I lost interest a few years ago :frown:

I've had MH issues for a long time but I've never actually been to the doctor to get diagnosed with anything. I probably should tbh! I'm currently seeing a psychologist but that wasn't through a GP either. I have a history of childhood trauma and my main issues are various anxiety symptoms and SH, with some common symptoms of other mental illnesses but I don't like to use the terms without proper diagnosis so I'll leave them out!

I like chatting about different things online (I'm quite the opposite irl though lol) so yeah I hope to get to know you all. :smile:

And I'm sorry in advance for any emotional rant and my forgetfulness with guidelines and signing my posts with the oh-so-creative-name :tongue:

Anxious Anon

Hiya!

I'm Cesca. :h:

Inbox is always open if you need someone to talk to. I know what it is like to lose your interests. :sadnod:

Reply 1062

Anonymous #17

Original post by Airmed

Hiya!

I'm Cesca. :h:

Inbox is always open if you need someone to talk to. I know what it is like to lose your interests. :sadnod:

Hi! I've read your blog in the MH awareness week, eye opening!
Cheers for the offer :smile:

Yeah losing interest is unpleasant on its own but hobby's essential in getting better - but I have no interest.. That downward spiral is real :s-smilie:

Reply 1063

Midnightmemories

So today I got shouted at because I was struggling to move boxes about and pull heavy cabinets out.

Yet whenever I ask for help I get moaned at because I should be able to do it? Yet if it was someone else then they would get help. :sigh:

Feels like everyone is against me.

Reply 1064

Anonymous #1

You know when you go somewhere, have too much of a good time then come back to a **** situation and it now seems even *****ier because you have a nice time to compare it too and now you're stuck here again and everything is exactly how crap it was when you left?
yeh..

~Anon 1

Reply 1065

Airmed

Original post by Anonymous

Hi! I've read your blog in the MH awareness week, eye opening!
Cheers for the offer :smile:

Yeah losing interest is unpleasant on its own but hobby's essential in getting better - but I have no interest.. That downward spiral is real :s-smilie:

Did you? I hope it wasn't too triggering or anything for you. :hugs:

Hmm, do you feel like you're doing it for the sake of doing something, anything?

Reply 1066

Airmed

Original post by Anonymous

Reply 1067

eden3

Original post by Anonymous

Thank you very much. I may PM you at some point. I've been to see the doctor before about my anxiety and they ended up giving me some beta blockers to help with the physical symptoms and to help calm me down in stressful situations, but I had to stop taking them since after taking them I felt more breathless than usual and had asthma when I was younger. The GP also said they would get in contact with a counsellor but I never heard from them about it.

I think if you are really struggling you should see a GP about it, especially if you've been feeling the way I do for well over a month. I think there is only so much trying to push through it you can do before it becomes unbearable. If I'm interpreting your sentence correctly I think you're saying that you get anxious going to the doctor? I also get anxious seeing the doctor (even talking on the phone to make an appointment requires me to psych myself up) but I think that dealing with the initial anxiety is much more preferable to trying to deal with these feelings on your own.

I ended up emailing my college advisor team to see if anyone is available to talk to. I think I am desperate enough that I want to at least try even if no one is available and I asked them to direct me to someone if they cannot get anyone to see me.

Sucks that the first GP didn't contact you about seeing a counsellor, that's strange.

I know I really need to see a GP but it's so hard for me. Yeah I get anxious about seeing doctors or even talking on the phone. I'm trying my best to not prolong it because I don't think I can tolerate this feeling much longer. Anything's got to be better than feeling like this.

I'm glad you emailed your college advisor. That's a start :smile:

Reply 1068

Anonymous #17

Original post by Anonymous

I know exactly how it feels. I had a great time yesterday with my friends but there was something triggering later that day that led me to dissociate and then even later that day cry non stop. The contrast made everything worse. The good time felt like a dream I woke up from and I was left alone in the cruel reality.

Original post by Airmed

Did you? I hope it wasn't too triggering or anything for you. :hugs:

Hmm, do you feel like you're doing it for the sake of doing something, anything?

I'm doing everything from studies to chores because I'm supposed to be doing them. Hobby is something I'm always told to find by my psychologist... But haven't been able to bring myself to it :colonhash:

Anxious Anon

Reply 1069

Anonymous #17

Original post by Airmed

Did you? I hope it wasn't too triggering or anything for you. :hugs:

Hmm, do you feel like you're doing it for the sake of doing something, anything?

Oh and no, it wasnt triggering, thanks for posting it. Ive never known anyone with a personality disorder so it was good to educate myself!

Reply 1070

Airmed

Original post by Anonymous

Anxious Anon

Original post by Anonymous

Oh and no, it wasnt triggering, thanks for posting it. Ive never known anyone with a personality disorder so it was good to educate myself!

I am told the same by my CPN, find something that makes you happy. It is hard though, I completely understand.

You're welcome. :h:

I only know on person in real life other than myself with a PD.

Reply 1071

Rum Ham

I feel how I felt last night again, like I can feel panic brewing under the surface and I am terrified of waking up to a major panic like I did last night. Part of me is trying to do an all nighter so I wont have to sleep but the other part of me knows what will only cause more problems and that even if I do have a panic, its ok - it'll pass. I just still feel drained from the one last night because I only got 2 hours sleep after it and then have had a banging headache on and off all day today so just feel like I couldn't last through another panic like I did last night :frown:

Reply 1072

Little Popcorns

Original post by Spock's Socks

Hmm I dunno if this will help but it often helps me... Prop your pillow up a little. Make sure you're warm enough and stuff. Have a banana or a piece of bread and some warm milk before bed to make sure it's not blood sugar dropping. Then watch a film or something soothing that you know doesn't get you riled up in any way and hopefully your sleep will be a bit of a more relaxed experience rather than bad dreams and panics? Sometimes eating certain foods in the day can trigger them in me but usually when coupled with stress.

For now just try to settle down with something nice to watch or something :smile:

Reply 1073

username2387497

OCD has been playing up today.
Have had to spend a day not being able to move at all :frown:

Really wish something could be done about it.
Just feeling low because of it!
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh

Reply 1074

username2387497

Original post by Anonymous

And I'm sorry in advance for any emotional rant and my forgetfulness with guidelines and signing my posts with the oh-so-creative-name :tongue:

Anxious Anon

Hey AA!
Thanks for introducing yourself! (Something i never thought to do!)

Youre in the same year as me and we listen to relatively similar music!
What were your hobbies?

Aw well i hope you can overcome your issues soon!! It must be a nightmare to live with!
You sound like a lovely person who is actually quite similar to me!
Im the same about the chatting thing too haha!
Id like to get to know you more too!
You intrigue me!
Hope youre well! :smile:

Reply 1075

Anonymous #1

Anxiety is spiking, trying to squash it because im trying not to freak myself out and just breathe :redface:

Goodnight ppl :redface:

Reply 1076

Anonymous #17

Original post by FireFreezer77

I used to dance, play the piano, sing, paint, read a lot and play basketball and a few other sports! All in the past :frown:

Yeah I hope I can overcome them asap but I put off dealing with them for so long it's gonna take a while for sure.
Hahahaha thank you XD I must say the same to you :wink:

Original post by Anonymous

Anxiety is spiking, trying to squash it because im trying not to freak myself out and just breathe :redface:

Goodnight ppl :redface:

Good night, I hope you have a good sleep :smile:

Anxious Anon

I am absolutely ****ed. Been trying to study for my exam but the voices won't stfu and I feel constantly on edge that some people are going to come kill me and my spouse, She won't listen to a word of it and keep shouting at me to shut up about the whole idea. I feel like uni has been a complete waste of time and money, I was stupid to think I could make something of myself, there goes another dream. I hate myself so much. :cry2: