My NEVER-ENDING EXISTENTIAL CRISIS rant.

😋🔪I haven't had breakfast... I'd kill them myself tbh.

It started in my early teens but now it took over my life. I even quit my job as a trainee solicitor, about a year ago or so because I was so sick of it. I mean, why bother? Life is so boring, unexciting, we are specs of dust in the universe. Bye bye career, hello debts. Unsurprisingly, life isn't much better now. 'Depression', 'anxiety', inability to get over things, emotional numbness, sedatives almost 24/7. My partner could disappear right now - would I care? No. Not even my occasional euphoric moods are worth it anymore. I'm so bored. So, so bored but at the same I'm too tired to actually live and change something. No, antidepressants didn't work, they did the opposite.

Long story short - I kind of want to die but I can't really do it ......... So no, it's not a 'wanna die' post, please don't remove it mods. Thaaank you

well life is tough so be tougher *****. On second thoughts you're a pussy so yeah just do it.

Nah, I'm too old to adopt the 'life is tough' approach! It's not too late for you though, haha.
PS at least I won't die a virgin, right? Can't say the same about you, unless you get a grip lol.

you're a weird bloke

one minute you seem friendly the next you don't

must be your mental illness

i shouldn't spend so much time around these parts

I am always friendly. But you were being really judgmental in that topic, it was annoying. The virgin thing, it's just banter, I'm not trying to actually insult you.

well i think the issue is you take education too seriously and I take my virginity seriously.

It's a source of extreme distress to me and has caused me homicidal and suicidal thoughts which are currently being maanged with medication.

Nope, I think you take education too seriously. I mean, calling people inferior because they didn't go to oxbridge? Really? But whatever, forget about it.
If it's not a relationship you want, then just get one of those hook up apps or hire a hooker?

no i don't take education seriously that's why i can recognise that some people are better than others because of their education.

I have one <3 Still wanna die. Lol.

get a guinea pig and a parrot.

Doesn't really make me feel any better. But thank you?

I didn't expect it too. But the message is still true.

I know where you're coming from OP and I have similar thoughts to you but not as extreme as yours. Yes, looking at the universe we are irrelevant but that doesn't mean we can't do meaningful things in our lives. Ultimately, I reckon you should try to find something to enjoy and hopefully that will help a little bit. Feel free to ask me anything regarding this as my answer is a bit vague.