Hey guys!
I'll try and keep this as short as possible. I was with my ex for about 6 months, I broke up with her in January due to her depression crippling her happiness, her beginning a new full time job and us constantly arguing because of the sheer amount of stress we were both under, I also had a final year of uni to think about, I respected the fact that she wasn't really showing much affection or care for the relationship anymore and made the decision to break up with her, as it simply felt like she was too scared to do it herself. Nevertheless we went to New York together as that trip was already planned and paid for, and the intended on making it the worst experience of my life with constant arguments, no matter how much I tried to make things right, she wasn't having any of it.
About a month of bickering ensued, I was trying to be the best person I could about it, trying to keep her happy, there was no mud slinging from my side, and see if we could salvage anything to turn it back around in the most mature way possible, however she simply kept arguing with me to the point where we just left it and went no contact. I feel I was a good boyfriend to her, just our personal circumstances got in the way and made it difficult for us to focus on the relationship. We couldn't be friends so we cut all ties with each other and abandoned ship.
7 months have passed with absolutely no contact, and I was on the verge of finally being over it, i'm speaking to someone new who is genuinely a really awesome girl. But some feelings for this ex still remain, the girl i'm speaking to left to go away to do some volunteering work in Africa for two weeks on Saturday... enter ex girlfriend ringing me at half 3 in the morning whilst i'm drunk on a beach... perfect timing, no?
She rang me (not drunk) asking if it was true that I was moving close to her hometown for work (the only way she'd know about this is if she'd checked my twitter), to which I said yes, maybe, but also reassured her that I wouldn't be in her way and would try to avoid her as much as I could to prevent anything from happening, to which she replied "no no it's fine I don't mind, it would just be strange if we bumped into each other, that's all", she then burst into tears, told me she missed me and still loves me, and started asking if I was seeing anyone else, she asked this about three times until I gave up and told her that i'm not really yet.
In response, I asked if she was seeing anyone, to which she replied "no of course i'm not, I haven't even kissed or slept with anyone since we broke up", this came as a total shock to me considering the kind of person she was before we first met, to the point where i'm not sure whether I believe it or not?? She also profusely apologised for everything that had happened and for "being such a ***** to me", to which I just said that i'm over it, it's cool and I don't hate her.
Anyway, after a 40 min chat and a bit of a catch up I told her that if this is the last I ever hear from her, then I really hope she ends up happy because she deserves it, but said that if she wanted to talk about things properly then the doors open for her to give me a ring in the next few days or so.
I'm just struggling to know what her motive was, why she said she still loves me and why she hasn't even tried with anyone since? Just wondering if anyone had any kind of idea what's going on here, and whether you think she'll be in contact or not? Or do you think I should just forget it ever happened and move on? Because i'm struggling, so any help would seriously be awesome, cheers for reading!