Struggling with (sort of) LDR

Hi all,

I've been with my boyfriend for 9 months, both in second year of uni. During term time, we're just under an hour away from each other. But during the breaks, he lives in Germany and I live in England.

Now we're in our summer holidays and I can't see him for the full ten weeks, not even for a weekend trip, due to holidays/work etc. And even though so far it's only been 4 weeks, there's still another 6 to go and I can't cope.

He is very distant - the majority of the time, I don't get good morning/night messages, or anything saying he's going to work or back from work. There's been times where he hasn't said he's going to work and just leaves my messages unread and then we won't talk for anther 16+ hours (he works from ~4ish til ~1ish in the morning) and I just find it totally ignorant. Of course I don't expect him to be messaging me all day when his family and friends are there but it's just surely common courtesy to say good morning/night and to say you're going to work rather than just completing dropping the conversation. For a month now we've spoken for 30 mins - an hour a day, sometimes less.

It makes me feel completely unwanted the lack of affection I get from him. I've poured my heart out about how I feel a couple times and when I have I've been told that it annoyed him and he wanted me to leave him alone and just stop talking about missing him. It's like talking to a brick wall and has changed nothing. Even after all this all I got was "love you" and that's it (sounds stupid but I feel that 'love you' is different to 'I love you' but I get that may just be me). The lack of affection is getting to me because I feel he isn't missing me in the slightest, and even though he says I shouldn't doubt how he feels about me I do when he goes on like this.

I love him but I'm just worried the time and distance is going to affect us and we won't be the same come September/term time which scares me. Sometimes I get really angry/upset at his complete lack of emotion/affection (made worse perhaps by hearing about my friends and their happy relationships) and other time I just go completely numb to it and think why bother, I should just call it off because I'm totally fed up.

I'm not sure what I'm after - maybe advice or just knowing other people feel the same way. Sorry for how long this is, thanks if you got this far!