Hey Saber
I'm sorry to read that your wife has been either ignoring or invalidating your fears and feelings. That must be really hard for you. It sounds like she's not handling it that well/helpfully, tbh
That is disconcerting to read. Though I guess it's hard for her to understand where you are coming from, given she hasn't ever experienced this kinda thing first-hand herself.
I hope you understand that I am concerned about what you're experiencing, and that I am speaking up because a) I know what it's like, and b), I care
I believe you are suffering from persecutory delusions and that you need to get help and support for this ASAP. Everything that you have written recently indicates you are still very much in the throes of psychosis and that anything done/administered when you were recently sectioned was ineffective/has worn off.
I know how it feels to feel that you are being spied on and targeted
It's not nice at all. It's very unnerving, scary and hard. It's little wonder you think seeing a psychiatrist would help, given everything you currently believe and what's going on in your head. But I really think some good meds and reassurance would help you to come out of this episode!
Being sectioned is far from fun or pleasant but your wellbeing and safety is of the paramount importance here. You should try and go along with whatever is suggested, using your wife as an advocate, so that you can get better. Life doesn't have to be this scary or hard
I acknowledge that for you, this appears to be reality, but please try and hear me out when I say it is not! You are far safer than you feel or are able to realise atm
Please try and find a psychiatrist to see ASAP. I need to try and get some sleep but big hugs to you! You can - and no doubt, will - get through this!
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