Dear you,
Today people were looking for me because I was late, and someone called me to tell me not to go because you were there, and I finally didn't because I didn't want to see you. You seen M and you wanted to talk to her but she didn't want to listen and just went away, but I know you wanted to ask her where I was because I'm usually with her 24/7.
And I'm confused you're still looking for me after all this time, 8 entire months you've been away from my life because I pushed you away, and you haven't messaged me a single time, and you're still actually looking for me??? Come on. You know you don't deserve to be in my life anymore, not after what you said.
Sometimes I just think about the good things you did for me. And I'm still wondering how, and especially WHY you changed so much. Remember that time you skipped a lesson and travelled all over the city just so you could come and see me because I was crying? That was cute, and I needed that, and really, I'll never forget that, thank you so much for that time.
Remember when my train was delayed and I had to take the other one 1h later and it was so late at night and I was scared and you actually came with me just because I was stressed, you took my bag during the walk to the train station and finally came inside the train with me? That was very kind as well, and again, I'm happy you did it, because the talk we had that time was great. Did I mention I actually missed you when I had to get off the train?
And also, that time when you decided to come at the library to explain to me that fxcking lesson I struggled so much to understand haha, and you came, from your uni to my library, you did all those miles to come and explain so I can be less stressed out.
You cared about me.
I'm sorry for what happened, but it was your fault. I won't forget the cute things, as I won't forget when you made me cry. What you did was unforgivable, and I know you said it all by jealousy, but still. You have no idea, not a single fxcking freaking idea, how I felt that day. Wait, you actually knew. You know me so well. So why did you do that?
Yesterday I did something pretty awesome, a great achievement. I wish you were there too see. Anyway what I did yesterday made me think about you, I have changed too. That's why I forgive you for what you said, I think I really do.
But you're not allowed to approach me. Not ever again.
From you know who, unfortunately.