I feel confused and conflicted. The never ending conundrum inside my head continues: do I need friends? Do I want friends? Will I be happy with no friends? How hard should I try at uni? Shall I give myself up as a lost cause and just be a loner from the start? Will I be happier like that? Or shall I try to maintain a mix of alone time and social time? Or shall I try to be the constant social butterfly that I'm not and stick to people like glue? I can never decide what I want, tsr Social things are usually very difficult. Mainly because I don't have anything to say. I've stopped talking to friends I liked very much simply because I ran out of things to say. I love my own company and like to do everything on my own. Yet I DO like to have a few friends. But they are so hard to make and keep and I'm not an attractove potential friend. I don't know how I should deal with this in halls. I dont want to be at an extreme of either complete hermit or constant socialising. I want time to myself, but I don't want to distance myself doing thay too much cos I'd still like some social time. Gah....
idk tbh need to stop comforting eating for starters lest ill be even more hideous than i already am also can no-one die tonight pls. no more explosions, limb amputations, ****ing clones ripping faces off, drowning, sea monsters or sexual assault thanks. Hopefully these will ease off soon. For the sanity of everyone else as well
the real question is why am i sat in my school uniform/business attire at 2am although ik the answer to that so idk why i asked it feel like my brain is leaching out of my ear also why is my 'condensed plan' nearly as long as my actual plan ffs ._. nearly 5000 words on this lol
I feel confused and conflicted. The never ending conundrum inside my head continues: do I need friends? Do I want friends? Will I be happy with no friends? How hard should I try at uni? Shall I give myself up as a lost cause and just be a loner from the start? Will I be happier like that? Or shall I try to maintain a mix of alone time and social time? Or shall I try to be the constant social butterfly that I'm not and stick to people like glue? I can never decide what I want, tsr Social things are usually very difficult. Mainly because I don't have anything to say. I've stopped talking to friends I liked very much simply because I ran out of things to say. I love my own company and like to do everything on my own. Yet I DO like to have a few friends. But they are so hard to make and keep and I'm not an attractove potential friend. I don't know how I should deal with this in halls. I dont want to be at an extreme of either complete hermit or constant socialising. I want time to myself, but I don't want to distance myself doing thay too much cos I'd still like some social time. Gah....
literally me right now. but tbh don't try and be a new type of person or whatever for uni, people will pick up on it real quick if you're trying to hard not to be this or to do that etc. just be yourself (cliche sigh) no but for real that's what I do - whenever I feel like friends I go talk to people whenever I feel like I need to be alone or want to be alone I do that, people start getting used to your boundaries and limits and level of social activity. I did that throughout high school and it worked for me. Everyone else isn't at either extreme either, everyone values both their social life and alone time, but everyone's balance is different.
just prop your door open while you're unpacking and if someone decides to stop and chat to you, talk to them. People are willing to approach you (from what ive seen on open days), so you don't even have to talk first but be open to talking to them when they do, and you should be fine. As for something to talk about, you can always go on a roadtrip or go to a concert/ see a movie and that's a topic
I'm in such a good mood! I just came back from Brighton where I had a fairly successful Gold CREST award assessment , had my braces tightened which was a bit argh, tried my new trainers , new Doctor Who DVD , applied to a job at my local Computer Exchange shop and had McDonalds and a donut , BEEN AWESOME TODAY! Thanking some people @Ayaz789@Matrix123@username1726117@Plagioclase@Labrador99 @anyone i missed cos y'all so insiprational and helpful and kind to me
Wow- that was a very busy day!...Aaww, that's really nice of you to say that