I mean, I'm definitely not asexual, I have desires quite strongly. And I have no problem with masturbation, even phone sex.
But I'm quite puritannical. I see excess, decadence in a world of poverty and all and I don't like it. Middle class kids taking drugs and going on about it, adultery, sex talk, and the general vapidity and soullessness of the world.
I suppose why it seems weird is my looks aren't bad and if I put the personality effort in, I could have some of that. It's weird because my natural desires are strong.
But I just find it all grubby. I live an extremely detached, more spiritual life. Weird?
I don't have sex, not that that is all through choice but I know women are fickle and untrustworthy, and that is part of the mentality-
I see the tawdriness, baseness and vulgarity of it. I also see something untrustworthy about women, especially, know this sounds weird, but my own ethnicity of women, white women, and my class of women, who I 'should' be with. They are the worst in terms of morals and shallowness, it's western white culture.
And this bit is even weirder- I'm even happier at the thought of being gay or thought of as gay, just to rsie above the whole tawdry thing I have disgust for , all the base sexual competition, what women are like, them having emotional power over me. Most of all them having power over me is what I hate.
Is it really weird for a naturally heterosexual male to actually not mind people thinking your gay or even wanting to be in some way, because I see liberation from womens power that way, and getting out of something that mildly disgusts me.
Am I misogynist?