I asked out a woman I like. I thought if she says 'yes' then great, if she says 'no' then at least I'll move on and not waste time. I didn't go a very good job of asking her out, she gave a somewhat uncertain 'no' and 2 months later I've not moved on even though I thought I had.
I saw her on Friday and I'm still sat here thinking about her. I got that auto FB message off her inviting me to messenger and then I'm wondering if she's sat thinking about talking to me and did it by accident. When her friends mention dating, she suddenly is trying really hard not to look at me and I'm wondering what's with that. Basically, I'm over analysing the hell out of things in case there's a chance she might change her mind.
I think the issue might be I knew her pretty well already. It's not like a crush where it's 80% projecting how you want them to be. I think I might have proper feelings for her and that kind of scares me. It feels like letting myself ask her out let my feelings out of the box they were in, I didn't realise I liked her that much.
I'm not some stupid 16 year old, I know the standard advice is 'you're being silly, move on'. I normally would have moved on- this feels ridiculous to me, probably more so than it sounds. I've been trying not to think about her, I went on a date last week, all the stuff I know I am meant to do.
So what the hell is with this and what do I do?