Normal that I can't express sadness with my friends?

It's not uncommon to have friends we can't be emotionally open with.

I used to be similar. What I found useful was to talk about past emotions. Once I found it easier to be honest about how I felt in the past, I was able to share how I felt at present. But not all friends are created equal and it may be you've not found the right people yet.

I struggle with my emotions and don't exactly tend to stable the majority of the time.

The type of friends I have in my life are my Ron and Hermiones, but I never had that growing up. I didn't feel connected, or that I could truly confide the sorrows of my heart. You will find supportive friends, but the main thing I learnt rather recently is that we have different types of friends. My four best friends- have been there when I was at my lowest and I can count on their support, but NOT everyone else is able to or wants to deal with someone who is ill or has complex emotions like us. What i'm trying to say is that we have different categories of friends. But with real friends you shouldn't have to hide the way you feel. They can see how I'm feeling and read me like a book without me even saying a word.

I have lecture friends-we only sit together and make dorky jokes.
I have a gym friend- we only talk about fitness, training and I flirt with him.Nothing serious
Group friends- Kids in my year that I have classes with.No real serious talk just banter.
Friends in years above- just mainly about school work and tips.Nothing heavy or deep.
With Jo - mainly just about makeup
With Smiley- just hugs and small talk.

I would honestly recommend you see a counselor or a therapist. Everyone needs to talk and they can be real superstars, our feelings are what they are and don't have to be justified.

Hey, thank you for your reply! I might try what you've done. If it doesn't work, then at least I can accept that my friends aren't comfortable with that kind of talk and that that's who they are. Thanks again

Friendships can change over time. So I wouldn't be quick to put your friends in a box if they don't respond in the way you want at first.

Only good and stable friends will wnat to know and be able to handle it. It sounds like you dont know the limits. It makes them feel awkward becayse they dont know and arent equipped to handle it.

Talk to your GP , your parents, a teacher, a counselor or an advice line like the Samaritans or Childline.

You're right - some things are too heavy to be discussed with them. Yes counselling is a good idea

My impression from what you posted is that you have a lot of strong emotional turmoil and it would really help if someone listened and even better understood how you felt.

Friends your age might struggle just as much you sharing things they would ream of doing and thats why it maes them feel awkward. Its too much for them.
Thats why an anonymous helpline to vent and then maybe a counselor to help you work through your feelings is better. Some parents can do it but not all parents want to or are good at it. Theres nothing wrong with you having these feelings, just discuss them who is equpped to deal with them . Talking about it may help you resolve the issues, prevent you becoming anxious or depressed and let you have a much happier life. Its a good thing you go and speak to soemone.

that's very true. We all have our problems, but some are best discussed with professionals. Talking about it helps so, so much as it releases it.

You cna talk to your friends about some things, but you need to be bale to know which ones are ok and which ones are too heavy for them. Your GP should help you find someone suitable.

Tldr you shouldnt be talking to friends about your problems tbh, sometimes they can laugh about it behind your back or spread rumours. So what you have isnt bad.

Talk to parents/siblings about problems