yknow i feel absolute **** but no matter how many times i say that no-one appears to get the message.
That is until today really
yknow when u cant hold it in anymore and just burst everywhere like some weird wet salty frog.
and its late now but rather than sleep u decide to write this meaningless post.
acc it is full of meaning but i doubt anyone is really arsed at this point.
not like im gonna sleep anyway.
or rather i will then wake up again, i could medicate myself out of that but why tf is a 17 year old self medicating in the first place
oh yeh that's right bc of all this *****y stress.
yknow sometimes i wish i was one of those rainforest ppl, or someone that wasnt here.
yknow what i hate and this is bad but tbh idgaf anymore.
noone cares about me so i may as well care for myself.
i expect **** will go down tomorrow.
or today rather, because oh no i acc cried. oh no i stopped pretending everything was fine, nearly had a hysterical breakdown but yknow only took like a ****ing year for anyone to realise anything was up.
tbh i dont want to be hounded.
no amount of 'talking' is gonna make anything go away.
or patronising ppl pretending to 'get it'
how can they get it when i dont.
because idk what is real and what is just a cloud.
this cloud of like stuff and it is just all engulfing and idk how to get out of it.
but yeh let's just continue to joke about everything bc that is so much better.
im tired.