Been put on beta blockers, been taken off queitapine and have had my trazodone increased.
Kinda annoyed too about my appointment today with the CPN. Turns out that psychiatry want to try and increase my meds to get me to a 'therapeutic level' so that they can put me forward for therapy and most likely group therapy. Yeah...thanks for telling me a year late. I told the CPN that I would point blank refuse group therapy and she answered with 'all 11 of the people in my therapy group right now all said the same- "I don't like people, I avoid people".'
Good for them, lady, but honestly, I have been ****ed around so much by the NHS that I refuse to potentially waste their time anymore.
And I know this sounds ungrateful, I know, but I know that group therapy is not for me. I can't open up in front of strangers, I barely opened up to the CPN today. I miss my usual CPN, because he understands me now and I know (and it was my SO who said this first) that my usual CPN would not put me forward for group therapy because he knows how unsociable and how my trust and openness is shot to pieces.
edit: there was even more that happened, but even writing about this has put me in a serious bad mood.