Hey I wonder if anyone else feels like this. I really do struggle to make use of free time. Like I will be like 'yay a day off' but then two hours later I'll just be sat there, bored out of my mind.
I don't even know what I do in my free time, I usually just find myself going on this website, or constantly refreshing Facebook, repeatedly stalking random people's profiles, or just looking at random things on the Internet. I really hate just sitting there, watching TV. I go for walks around where I live but I'm sick of that too - I've seen it all before and it does get quite maddening, just being stuck with your own thoughts.
I often feel very fatigued and lose motivation very easily - when I start a project, as soon as it gets difficult I will think 'what's the point?' and give up. I've even given up on reading books.
It's just starting to dawn on me that my life is very dull indeed. I would go into details but it's long, complicated and boring. I easily become envious of other people such as a friend of mine and then I feel absolutely dreadful about myself. With the amount of online stalking I do, it really is as though I don't have a life of my own.
I make all these plans when I'm in a good mood to improve things but as soon as I get in a bad mood, I just cba to put them into practice. I hardly ever get to have intense, stimulating conversations with anyone (this may change very soon mind you).
Sorry for the rant haha, I just needed to get this off my chest and I don't (yet anyway) have anyone I feel comfortable telling this to in real life. Probably just a temporary negative slump because I'm currently bored af. I like to psychoanalyse myself so I may do that later to get to the bottom of this