I literally hate myself more than I thought was possible, to the point where I avoid mirrors as a sport and 50% of the time want to hide in a corner at college because I feel so disgusting. I hate being surrounded by people my age, all of them perfectly normal, all of them pretty and living their lives, getting boyfriends and girlfriends. I feel like I'm missing so much, yet I can't do anything about it other than stand back and watch probably what's supposed to be the best years of my life, just go by. I was born with auto immune hypothyroidism which inevitably means I'm small. I'm just about 5' tall and I'm nearly 17, do you have any idea how depressing that is? I used to hate the side comments about looking like a child and that the only relationship I'll ever be in is one with a paedophile because that's all I'll ever be good enough for. The thing is, I don't hate those comments anymore, I'm numb to them. Once you accept it I guess it stops hurting, that's the best thing I ever did, accept it. At the end of the day I'll never be anything else to those people. That's rhe sad fact that I have to live with, maybe if I'm lucky, I'll get out early.
Anyone any advice? Because I'm all out of hope