Mental Health Support Society XVIII

Its with a drs permission that im coming off meds. And i reduced properly not just cold turkey.
Though this dr doesnt know me or my back story and has only met me once so #YOLO haha

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Hello. I'm Dominic, previously diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar/ASD/EDNOS, now with a psychiatrist who seems to think I'm malingering. I'm in hospital and being kept in until January, by a psychiatrist who appears to think there's nothing wrong with me! It's all very strange.

How is everybody today:? I'm in a bit of a state. I called advocacy about having been rather brutally restrained, smashed into the linoleum and held down by my neck, almost passed out then discovered much later that my head had bled onto the floor. Advocacy referred me to my MH lawyers, who referred me to the Mental Welfare Commission for Scotland. I cried during the call and the call handler hung up on me. The restraint had been on the grounds that I'd thrown water over a nurse whilst a bit loopy. I've also been charged with assault and possibly have to go to court over, to be fair, badly injuring another nurse. The nurse who dealt with me after that incident explained it in terms of: "if you're drunk and you assault somebody, you're responsible, so if you're unwell and you assault somebody, you're responsible". I don't know what to think of it all.

Ah OK. That's better than what I presumed. Though sounds like that dr didn't have the info needed to make a proper decision...

I actually had an okay day. I got a couple of hours more sleep, and went to college. I was really scared, but the tutor I'm scared of was nice. I did hear my name being said like 7 or 8 times by him in a conversation with another tutor under their breaths though, but no one else who was there heard it so I don't know

I didn't really get any work done, but I still went and I guess I'm proud of that at least. I'm at home relaxing, and I have tomorrow off as well, so I only have Wednesday to get through unless plans change. Hanging in there until Thursday

Hugs to everyone

things are kinda looking up now and I'm happy. Things are getting dealt with and I'm pleased that it's finally happening.

What is it with the evenings why do I always feel low and anxious ?


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Hope this doesn't upset anyone but here goes.

A few days ago my grandad died, I miss him but he was always manipulative and it continues after his death.

He leaves my cousin 10 thousand in his will, the same cousin who has made death threats to my family over the years as she is bi polar and violent, left my married cousins a lot of money but none for me and my brother as we are single, yet all my cousns are very well off and me and brother on disability benefits and struggling.

He said a lot of hurtful things over the years that are still on my mind but I do miss him but I am angry with the way he treated my side of family over the years.

Going into hospital this evening after uni to restart clozapine. Voluntary thank god! Wish me luck

My CPN is back! He sounded exhausted on the phone, so I hope he is alright. Seeing him on Friday.

Well, I've been gone for a while.

Nothing has gotten better despite it seeming that it did. Downward spiral commenced a week ago. I just want this crap to stop :/

Hi again. Status report is that I'm utterly crushed with guilt, all over again. Breakup guilt. I wish I were/had been a better person.

Going into hospital this evening after uni to restart clozapine. Voluntary thank god! Wish me luck

Hey,

Aw very glad to hear that
I'm proud of you for going, it's very brave of you and it will help for the future now
Hmm that's odd but it was good things because you're so awesome!

Aw well at least you went! That's the main thing here Were all very proud of you!
You deserve a nice relaxing day off now
Hope all goes smoothly!

The police are on their way to take my brother to the hospital again. I don't know why exactly, but he's being physically separated from me so I can only presume the worst. I thought this was all over. I can't go back to living like that

I'll have you in my thoughts all evening

Going into hospital this evening after uni to restart clozapine. Voluntary thank god! Wish me luck