I think I need professional help, but I am less than confident in its efficacy. The counselling I have had has been rather inconsequential. I've been very, very down lately, due to a long-term relationship ending, and the partner immediately - well, technically beforehand - moving on to someone better than me. I have mild depression in general, I think, but this sort of thing really triggers it. I can't focus on anything, and, well, I do not know the rules as to what you can say on here, but let's just say in terms of my considerations I've gone as low as I can possibly go, and I am scared of what I am capable of.