Currently, I am attending a college sixth form and studying 3 a levels. My grades are on average Cs and Bs, but I am really struggling despite everyone thinking I am doing well.
I have been suffering with depression and anxiety for years, and have only just recently been discharged from CAMHS (child and adolescent mental health services) because they believed I was doing better.
Last year, I struggled a lot with my GCSEs, my mental health was the worst it had been and I spent days skipping school and staying in bed. Eventually, the idea of going into school made me go into panic attacks everyone thought it would be best I leave and be home tutored (which began in January). This was very successful since I had no pressure put on me and I could do things at my own pace.
I was hesitant to apply to study A levels because I didn't want my mental health to detoriate again, but my mom persuaded me to at least try it, so I did.
At first, I enjoyed college and made friends quickly, I liked going into my lessons and generally just being in college. Everything seemed to be going well up until recently, whereby I have been bursting into tears in lessons or crying myself to sleep because of how stressed I am. I feel like my mental health has become worse due to the stress of college, and not being able to manage my work.
I am considering dropping out and either studying a course at the college's other campus, or starting an apprenticeship, both in health and social care. I feel that I potentially may be a lot happier due to there being less stress, but I do not know if it is the right choice.
Perhaps I could drop out, spend time making myself better and taking a much needed break from the stress, and re-applying at my college in September?
Sorry for the long post, but I need some advice that isn't biased or from someone who has been through a similar dilemma, thank you.