So recently I've been getting a lot of comments from family members and teachers about giving myself a break in regards to studying, and I completely understand what they're saying, but i just can't. I am a huge hypocrite. I will worry about other people's health when they're studying, when in reality, I'm terrible at telling myself when to stop.
I was sent home by a teacher last term as I had worked myself into illness. As my timetable for my second year of college is horrific, I have a massive break in the middle of the day (10:15-2:45), and if I don't work during that time, I feel horrible.
She basically said that it's great that I'm so motivated, but that it's becoming damaging, as she had been witnessing me sitting there chugging along with my work for hours without stopping.
I currently do 3 coursework subjects, and one exam based one, which hasn't helped, but I really love doing them all. (For anyone who's interested, its graphics, IT BTEC, Art EPQ and English lit/language)
Having this much of a workload was going to be risky from the start, I knew this, but because I love drawing, and art, and all that jazz, I didn't care.
I've had to miss a lot of college recently, because i've been getting more and more ill, and my family think it's due to me piling on more work for myself. I've completely knackered myself, but if I stop I feel incredibly anxious. As anyone who does a subject like art, or graphics etc, it's a very competitive and fast paced environment, and I don't feel comfortable unless i'm working on something.
So, I guess my question is: how do I stop being such an idiot?
How do I calm down and tell myself that i'm not going to fail because of taking a break?
And also, is there anyone out there facing a similar situation?