No reason to wake up in the morning - 1 month to change my life CHALLENGE - tips?

Yep, no reason to wake up in the morning so I often just sleep until noon/afternoon. It's not a problem because valium can knock you out for hours and hours, so why bother.
Here's what I need to fix
- Anxiety. Sometimes it's for no reason but I often get really bad anxiety attacks and flashbacks around certain types of men (past trauma related ******** but that's not important - the key issue is that it makes it difficult for me to go outside on my own, or when I'm not sedated out of my mind)

- I quit my job about a year ago (I was a trainee solicitor). I need to get a new job, but anxiety prevents me from getting one too right now

- Food aversion - ew, food. I can't stand it. But I've lost even more weight recently, and already look like a corpse so I want to try and eat more. Sick of being anemic/endlessly tired, fainting, etc. too.

- Sadness for no reason - nothing and everything can trigger it so idk how to fix that one

- Sedatives - I take way too much valium and xanax, not just when I need it. Sometimes I just love to drug myself into oblivion with it because it feels divine. Will try to take less

- My relationship/house situation - my partner currently pays for literally everything, and has been financially supporting me since I quit my job. He says it's fine but I think he doesn't love me anymore. He always finds excuses not to be home. I feel super lonely most of the time. I have a crush on someone else now, because at least that other person gives me some attention (but it's not serious) - so the plan is to break up with him, and move out

- Reconnect with friends/get new ones. I kind of just kept pushing them away after what happened to me. Will try to fix things, or, alternatively, get new friends

Ok, so I'm giving myself this one last chance to fix my life. I know that I will probably fail, but hey, at least I tried.
Feel free to share any tips you may have please - about any of the things I've mentioned

You need to see a specialist about your mental state asap, this is very unhealthy and by the sound of it you're not doing well helping yourself.

"so the plan is to break up with him, and move out" - after you become stable on his resources

No, thank you... Trust me, it wouldn't help.


What do you mean? His resources? I said I will try to get a new job.

just go see someone and stop looking for motivation on the internet. Its unlikely you'll get it

Its clear you need help and i know it seems like other people wont be able to help you because they haven't been trough what you have but trust me it helps, it takes time to find a good therapist but once you find the right person and start getting to the root of the problem and solving it you will feel a lot better. Trying to do this alone will just make you worse ,speaking from past experience.