Unreasonably stressed all of a sudden. Didn't even eat dinner or even a proper lunch due to borderline panicking. My mind has set this stupid unrealistic goal of getting a 90% average in my first year exams, what for I don't know, probably because every since I started uni my life has been devoid of purpose/goals, given that achieving a first is utterly trivial.
So now I'm panicking over an exam that's supposed to be easy and that I 'need' close to 100% in, just because I did a paper and struggled a little bit with a couple of questions and was generally unsure in places that my answer style was correct. I'm becoming unhealthily neurotic. If I do badly tomorrow I'll probably end up depressed again. I mean, what kind of ridiculous reaction is that.
I need to abandon this idiotic 'goal', but then I go back to having zero purpose in life, which I simply could not stand. It's a lose-lose situation.