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How are you feeling right now? MKV

I cried so much that I now I wish I had cancer so I could die. I don't have the guts to end it myself neither do I have the courage to get through this - I'm not strong enough for this life and the sh!te that is going to happen.

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Original post by abc_123_

Aww, Im glad you've made progress and stuff and hope you don't fall back in to the hold habits x is it to do with a breakup or something?

Thanks and it’s kind of to do with a break up but I think I took that lightly since we weren’t deep, I’m more upset about having to re do next year and not getting in with the group of friends I got on with. Instead I chose a group I felt had to be drunk with to have fun. Also I’m just not happy with myself, im not exactly who I want to be physically, personality wise and mentally. I’d like to be a lot more positive which is working well, I’d like to be in better shape and idk I feel like along the way I gave up on myself which led to a bland personality… but I’m working on all of those which is quite satisfying when it goes to plan.

Also got some family/Home stuff that’s been going on. Lately I’ve been having nightmares relating to past events which keep waking me up/giving me panic attacks, or I just stay up thinking up it and other stuff - that’s the stuff I’ve learnt to accept that I can’t change but it is a little too hard to ignore sometimes.

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TagridS

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Hi guys i need someone to proofread my personal statement, do you know someone who can help me?? :smile:

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abc_123_

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Original post by zayn008

Thanks and it’s kind of to do with a break up but I think I took that lightly since we weren’t deep, I’m more upset about having to re do next year and not getting in with the group of friends I got on with. Instead I chose a group I felt had to be drunk with to have fun. Also I’m just not happy with myself, im not exactly who I want to be physically, personality wise and mentally. I’d like to be a lot more positive which is working well, I’d like to be in better shape and idk I feel like along the way I gave up on myself which led to a bland personality… but I’m working on all of those which is quite satisfying when it goes to plan.

Also got some family/Home stuff that’s been going on. Lately I’ve been having nightmares relating to past events which keep waking me up/giving me panic attacks, or I just stay up thinking up it and other stuff - that’s the stuff I’ve learnt to accept that I can’t change but it is a little too hard to ignore sometimes.

Well when you re-do next year you might have the opportunity to make some new friends who are better than your current friends. If you got on with the other group you could arrange to go out or something, maybe try and become closer to them. I understand how it is to not form that bond with people you get on with as it's happened to me before but over time Ive managed to find some really good friends x
Are you in sixth form then? x
If you're working on all the things that you feel negatively about then that's definitely a step in the right direction and I'm sure you'll get there :smile:

I'm sorry about the family problems :frown:

x I'm not exactly sure what to say other than have you got anyone at school or home who understands what's going on who you can talk to? xx
I hope everything works out okay :hugs:

xx

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Original post by LunaCat

I cried so much that I now I wish I had cancer so I could die. I don't have the guts to end it myself neither do I have the courage to get through this - I'm not strong enough for this life and the sh!te that is going to happen.

But together we can make it through. :console:

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Original post by abc_123_

Well when you re-do next year you might have the opportunity to make some new friends who are better than your current friends. If you got on with the other group you could arrange to go out or something, maybe try and become closer to them. I understand how it is to not form that bond with people you get on with as it's happened to me before but over time Ive managed to find some really good friends x
Are you in sixth form then? x
If you're working on all the things that you feel negatively about then that's definitely a step in the right direction and I'm sure you'll get there :smile:

I'm sorry about the family problems :frown:

x I'm not exactly sure what to say other than have you got anyone at school or home who understands what's going on who you can talk to? xx
I hope everything works out okay :hugs:

xx

Idk… I’ve seen the year 12s and they seem like the worst people, I’m already friends with some and they don’t compare at all to my year but I guess I’ll just have to stick it out. I have been trying that, it’s going quite well but it’s just disappointing I won’t get to be at school with them, it’s a shame you can spend 6 years with people in school and only realise they’d be good friends at the end of the last year. And yep I am :smile:

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Yeah, I’m working on it but it’s still such a long way. I guess next year is like a buffer year so hopefully I’ll be in a good mindset and happy with myself, if I went this year I still wouldn’t be which could’ve been worse than actually redoing the year since it’d be a whole new environment it could either go really well or really bad..

Sometimes I talk to a friend about it and it helps with a lot of stuff especially if it’s been piling up on my mind but then there’s just things daily things I can’t change which frustrates me like their attitude. But I’m glad I’m a different person now, I felt pretty bad the last few days and I fell back into no bad habits instead I just spent my time thinking and focusing my energy on what’s important so that feels great :smile:

Thanks for talking, it’s really helped! I appreciate it a lot :hugs:

x

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Original post by zayn008

Idk… I’ve seen the year 12s and they seem like the worst people, I’m already friends with some and they don’t compare at all to my year but I guess I’ll just have to stick it out. I have been trying that, it’s going quite well but it’s just disappointing I won’t get to be at school with them, it’s a shame you can spend 6 years with people in school and only realise they’d be good friends at the end of the last year. And yep I am :smile:

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Yeah, I’m working on it but it’s still such a long way. I guess next year is like a buffer year so hopefully I’ll be in a good mindset and happy with myself, if I went this year I still wouldn’t be which could’ve been worse than actually redoing the year since it’d be a whole new environment it could either go really well or really bad..

Sometimes I talk to a friend about it and it helps with a lot of stuff especially if it’s been piling up on my mind but then there’s just things daily things I can’t change which frustrates me like their attitude. But I’m glad I’m a different person now, I felt pretty bad the last few days and I fell back into no bad habits instead I just spent my time thinking and focusing my energy on what’s important so that feels great :smile:

Thanks for talking, it’s really helped! I appreciate it a lot :hugs:

x

I understand how you feel. I had to re-do my first year of A-levelsl and at first I was looking at the year below and saying 'I will never be friends with any of them'. I had a lot of friends in my own year but didn't know many people from the year below. However, by the end of the first year (of my retake year) I was friends with about half the year. This is coming from someone who rarely socialises and was thinking 'how on earth am I going to make friends with anyone in the year below?'

Obviously they won't compare to the friends in my own year as I spent a total of 7 years with them, but it did help me get through the final year in school since my friends from my own year had left by that point.

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Original post by qasim_96

I understand how you feel. I had to re-do my first year of A-levelsl and at first I was looking at the year below and saying 'I will never be friends with any of them'. I had a lot of friends in my own year but didn't know many people from the year below. However, by the end of the first year (of my retake year) I was friends with about half the year. This is coming from someone who rarely socialises and was thinking 'how on earth am I going to make friends with anyone in the year below?'

Obviously they won't compare to the friends in my own year as I spent a total of 7 years with them, but it did help me get through the final year in school since my friends from my own year had left by that point.

Thanks! That honestly does make me feel better, I guess I shouldn’t be too judgmental and I guess I’ll have a few people retaking from my year + I can always meet up with old friends and it’s only gonna be for maths (hopefully!)

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username1439610

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Original post by zayn008

Thanks! That honestly does make me feel better, I guess I shouldn’t be too judgmental and I guess I’ll have a few people retaking from my year + I can always meet up with old friends and it’s only gonna be for maths (hopefully!)

No problem :smile:

It did help that some of my original friends ended up retaking too. You end up making friends with people who are in your class and this really helps you get through the year. Even if you only make 2-3 friends from your class it does help. I never thought I'd end up making so many friends from the year below but after a few weeks I got more comfortable with them and ended up getting more involved with them and ended up making a friends.

That dream was horrible
regret going to sleep now
her face was horrible and lit oddly and it was just awful

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Maid Marian

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I feel conflicted. I think about having rhinoplasty a lot. :sad:

I've hated my nose for many years. It's wonky. I really wish it was straight. But I'm too scared to have a rhinoplasty. What if my nose is botched? What is my breathing is affected? What if it goes horribly wrong? The price I'll have paid for vanity.

:nopity:

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math42

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I gotta rant here, even if this is hardly the appropriate place/nobody will know what I'm talking about. I've learned a decent amount about poker and I feel it would be a reasonable small source of income, if I had a decent amount to start with. Problem is, I can only play micro stakes now, and people are so f**king stupid that there's basically no skill involved. As it stands, I have lost a significant amount online, nothing dangerous, but it pisses me off when I'm losing it to people who are just idiots, even if I have, obviously, made a lot of mistakes.

Opponent opens, I call, nobody else to the flop. He bets on the flop, I raise with straight draw, he reraises very small, I feel kind of uncomfortable but have to call. Check-check on the turn which fills a flush. Ace on the river, he checks and I shove all in as a slight overbet bluff. He calls with pocket 4s - note that every single card on the board is higher than a 4. I guess a thinking person could put me on the kind of hand I had (a missed straight draw, just queen high), and think that I would just check down my hands with showdown value, and bluff with nothing, but it seems far more likely that he's just a f**king moron who can't let any kind of pair go. I dunno. Tbh I typed out this paragraph a while ago and having had time to relax (not a big amount of money lost at all, just annoying psychologically), I guess my line is a bit suspect and theirs does make some sense. But again, at such small stakes, when so many people will do blatantly ridiculous things, I find it hard to give anyone credit. I guess if I had a flush draw, I would often play it in a very similar way, checking on the turn for disguise, and going for max value on the river, so at least I can say I'm somewhat balanced, and I'm making it difficult for him in this spot.

Funny thing is I've gone into bigger stakes games online before and just crushed them, because people actually think, and they care about the amount they're losing, and they actually care about the hand you might have, not just the hand they have. It's not a ridiculous unpredictable free-for-all.

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Original post by TheOtherSide.

I love how I'm always procrastinating on TSR on days before exams.

You still have exams?

A bit silly haha -

Got on wrong train as forgot trains at to mine are once an hour atm due to engineering work. Going to have an hour wonder round Bath once the train gets there :smile:

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I've been upset for 2 days because my dad brought home strawberry cheesecake because ASDA was out of raspberry, and they're still out today. :facepalm:

This week is not going well.

:sad:

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Original post by MrsMars

I've been upset for 2 days because my dad brought home strawberry cheesecake because ASDA was out of raspberry, and they're still out today. :facepalm:

This week is not going well.

:sad: