I don't really know where to begin, on this topic. I have just spent four years at University and am a week away from failing my degree. I have a lot left to do and realistically cannot do it. (5000 words, 4000 words and an Exam all in the next week)
It is really hard to explain what's happening but I basically hated university from the day I got there and stupidly by my own admission continued going on with it. I Failed my first year and had to resit only 2 modules during the second year
by my third year (third year at uni, second year of the course) I was battling with severe depression that resulted in me nearly taking my own life. This was due to lots of problems that I could not understand like my bad temper coming out of nowhere. problems with friends, problems with girls and ultimately problems scraping by at uni. My life was a massive mess. I have been to see a psychiatrist just last week and finally at the age of 23, was diagnosed with what my doctor described as a "moderate-severe form ADHD".
I have worked so hard in the last year trying to get my degree I can't explain how hard i've worked attempting to get this degree, I've had to pick up extra modules due to the depression and failing modules last year. but I think I have just come to the realisation i cannot do it. I don't feel depressed or like killing myself, I actually feel a lot happier knowing that a lot of my problems were down to ADHD, and continuing doing something I absolutely hated from the start when I really should have quit. I only made them worse by not being honest with myself and quitting when I should have.
I just want to know what people think? it is such a bizarre situation and just having some opinions or someone to talk to would just maybe help a little bit.
I feel like a failure and a bit of a loser for spending four years at uni and not coming out with a degree. But, I also feel like someone who has pushed themselves so hard, never quit, battled depression and battled ADHD (without even knowing why my life was the way it was).
Since the year I got out of my depression I have improved so much as a person, even to the point where I realised that there wasn't something quite right and seeking help by going to a psychiatrist.
since being diagnosed last week I feel such a sense of relief knowing that I will be able to get medicated help and CBT and that I will be able to enjoy my life in the future.
my ambition is to be a Recruitment Consultant, and a really good one, I have 2 years of sales experience and I am very confident and ambitious when it comes to a sales role and that type of environment. I also know there are Recruiters out there who take people on from A-level, and I do have reasonable A-levels. Its just explaining the four year black hole of depression, ADHD and no degree or trying to blag it? cover it up and hope they don't verify it? or just be honest? i'm not saying i'm going to lie I really don't want too but, I can understand that companies are not going to be lining up to hire me either if I explain the circumstances.
What do you guys on here think about all this? has anyone heard of stories similar to this? people overcoming such adversity and negative circumstances and still going onto becoming a success? I want to do it I really do.
would help to here some thoughts on here. I'm not a bad guy honestly, just a lad who's made a lot of bad choices but is trying to put them right.