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Really sorry to hear this but I can truly empathise. I had to put my eldest cat and my Yorkie to sleep within a year of each other due to cancer and it was beyond heartbreaking. 3 years on and I still feel overwhelming guilt. I feel like I should have done more, should have been able to cure them even though I know it's not possible but that's how you feel when you love someone - you feel guilty if you can't save them I still miss them and think of them every day. I dream about them most night too and in my dreams, the guilt comes through.
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You're not a failure

Thank you, but I really am. This isn't the first thing I've given up on; my whole life is a series of trying and failing and so giving up.

I had my dog to sleep because he no longer enjoyed life and was very troubled. It was the worst day of my life and I wish I could turn back time and have him back. I made a terrible mistake and the guilt will be something I will have to live with forever.

Sorry to read this, if it makes you feel any better I was just about to post on here about my deceased dog. I feel the same as you but for a different reason. My dog was 18 years old and we had him for a pup, was very healthy throughout his life - minimal health issues. As he got older her started to slow down but he was happy and content. In the last couple of months he was not himself, he'd been peeing in the house (which wasn't an issue for us) but he was still fine, eating drinking fine, wanting to go for walks. I was in turmoil what to do, I didn't want him suffering but couldn't bear to let him go. He stopped eating but would eat bits of his favourites, then started eating again. I was constantly questioning what to do. Finally me and my partner made the decision to have one final night with him and take him vets because he was really confused. He passed away at home in his sleep but I constantly worry if I made him suffer or not. I am eaten up by guilt and everyday I break down crying, I feel like an evil person and worry I left it too late.

You are not an evil person. Your dog was 18- he lived a very long life and was really old. What would the vet really have done? Intensive scans, surgeries or medication would probably not be the best thing for him anyway. Your dog passed away in his sleep in the comfort of his home. I think you can rest assured he knew he was loved and drifted his way to sleep. I am so sorry for your loss and your pain