How are you feeling right now? MKV

Because. That's my response. Because. Lol.

Alright. Lol.

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Okay. Lmao.

Dot. Dot.

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Just want to sleep and eat. And do nothing else.

Physically getting worser and worser.. But problems are getting bigger and bigger.
Fear I'll leave the people i love in pain. Don't want that
I need to solve things but i feel helpless.
My family had just fallen apart from everywhere. Honestly.

Overwhelmed. So much. Breathing feels hard.

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I should be sleeping but my mind isn't switching off

Watching some 'Spooks' episodes on catchup which is exciting and a little too stimulating this time of night - toying with the idea of making ham, egg and chips or maybe just having a cheese & ham toastie or perhaps a cheese, ham and onion omelette...

Far too many choices for one man.

Tired and worrying about some phone calls I have to make tomorrow I'm starting to realise I have a habit of making irresponsible life choices...

So angry, so so angry. People love taking advantage of me.

Don't let them take advantage of you, once you do they won't stop and it will get worse and worse.

So angry, so so angry. People love taking advantage of me.

had one of those weird things last night, the dream before you are asleep thing. was just starting to drift off when i had this bright yellow light in my head (this is really hard to describe) and i could see my ceiling even though obviously my eyes were closed. Stuff like this happens a fair bit although it is usually hearing weird noises as you are just about to fall asleep which jerks you awake. 'Woke up' to go and switch the light off in my room which is when i realised it wasn't real because my room was dark
managed to fall asleep on the second attempt and kind of wish i hadnt since my friends got shot in the head and i got my ribs broken in 7 places (know it was 7 because whoever's voice it was told me so)
what a great start to the day :/

I feel utterly utterly devastated. Like my whole world just caved in without any warning whatsoever. Nothing makes sense anymore. What good is life now? This has been going on for months and now finally it has reached it's peak. It can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse.

I didn't know that the very people that raised you ever since you were a baby could do something so disgusting and hurtful.

I also didn't know I had tears until today when my eyes just couldn't take it anymore. I'm a man ffs, I shouldn't cry. But this is just too much to take...

Is it normal to randomly feel the need to just cry

I feel utterly utterly devastated. Like my whole world just caved in without any warning whatsoever. Nothing makes sense anymore. What good is life now? This has been going on for months and now finally it has reached it's peak. It can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse.

I didn't know that the very people that raised you ever since you were a baby could do something so disgusting and hurtful.

I also didn't know I had tears until today when my eyes just couldn't take it anymore. I'm a man ffs, I shouldn't cry. But this is just too much to take...

What happened man? You've been away from some time and now you come back to this

I feel utterly utterly devastated. Like my whole world just caved in without any warning whatsoever. Nothing makes sense anymore. What good is life now? This has been going on for months and now finally it has reached it's peak. It can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse. Can't get any worse.

I didn't know that the very people that raised you ever since you were a baby could do something so disgusting and hurtful.

I also didn't know I had tears until today when my eyes just couldn't take it anymore. I'm a man ffs, I shouldn't cry. But this is just too much to take...