I am such a huge disappointment, especially for my parents. I can't shake this feeling that everyone would be better off without me. I've deleted most means of contact people have, now only email, whatsapp, my phone, (and lol tsr) remain. I've stopped speaking to most online people, which is a lot of people, not just from tsr lel.
Yet other things make me feel like I am getting better, recovering slowly. Am I just kidding myself or is this for real?
I've been having many nightmares lately... I am scared to fall asleep. Normally, when I dream or have a nightmare, I tend to know it's not real. But these feel too real, shakes me when I wake up. Even the good dreams make me sad, because I want them to be real.