Okay. I think I generally want to state that it baffles me how many of the Muslim responders on this thread are just completely incapable of answering your questions and addressing your concerns, because they ARE legitimate concerns and they do need explaining. I can't remember who it was, but the person that said, "why are you only focusing on the negatives" just blew me away?? Religion is not meant to be followed blindly and passively.
That being said, I am a Muslim. And things have been kind of difficult for the past few months! Because I'm struggling to understand why so many things are often problematic, and why it's so difficult to understand them, and why Muslim countries are so backwards and disgusting. I've found some answers. But it's tiring. And it's confusing. And recently, I've been sort of feeling that my belief in God is unwavering but my belief in Islam is not? And that's a very difficult thing to come to terms with.
I don't know why I'm unloading all of this on here because what I mainly wanted to say is that I understand why you find it difficult to take in some of the things said in the Qu'ran. I really do. And I appreciate how respectful you are in conducting this conversation, even though some of the answers you're getting are ridiculous. I relate to you in many ways, but I feel like I can still find answers. Some of the problems you've mentioned I've already looked into and I've found things that make sense, and that are reassuring. I just don't know if I'm going to be able to find that for everything.