Thank you so much for your reply, it's much appreciated.
The main problem that I have is location and that in two years I won't know where I'll be. I will definitely be going to Malaysia for the next two years but after that I could be coming home to the UK, going to America, Singapore, Hong Kong.....it really does depend on the opportunities available in two years time.
I don't want to sit in Malaysia raising my kids and doing nothing else, I want to use my time productively and least bring myself one step closer to doing my degree, wherever that may be. I choose a levels because although the access course is one year, it would mean that I'd be sitting around for one year also as I can't study my degree in Malaysia because I'd be leaving anyway. It's so hard to travel and study!
I'm definitely anxious about juggling everything considering we could have another arrival during our stay in Malaysia. My head is telling me that I should wait and not bite off more than I can chew but I'm so depressed just being a stay at home mum and I've already put this off for 12 years! I don't want to wait any longer.
Many thanks once again for replying, I want to follow my heart and do something for myself for a change.