DATE: MONDAY 23rd OCTOBER 2017AIM: REFLECTION OF TERM 1 SEP - OCT You know that cheesy thing we do every year:
New Year New Me, But we actually do the same thing we did last year, in fact maybe even worse? Yeah. That was me, and probably the majority of us in everything.
After receiving my shambolic AS grades (I'm not evening going to add them in, but let's just say that I didn't fail - I barely passed. Yes. I can imagine your imagination running
wild. Note the sarcasm.) I legit let the single tears of failure stream down my face. And I failed at crying too, I couldn't even bawl because I was so SHOCKED! From getting
11 A*-A in my GCSEs, (I did 11 subjects) to getting not even a B, I was pretty
devastated. I knew A Levels were harder than GCSEs
believe me, WE ALL KNOW. For any one in AS reading this, just know that YES IT IS HARD but it
DOESN'T have to BE HARD FOR YOU! WHY? I remember when people used to ask me what I was studying, BCM - BIO MATHS and CHEM, they all said, literally apart from all the BCMers, "OMG THOSE ARE REALLY HARD SUBJECTS. HOW ARE YOU GOING TO MANAGE! YOUR SOCIAL LIFE IS GONE"
To all those people
https://media.giphy.com/media/JyW51lx5XMDgQ/giphy.gifFIRST OF ALL, TO ALL YOU BABY BCMers (AS) and ASers, LISTEN TO ME! (listen to the song here in my heart, A melody I start, but can't completeeee Beyoncé....no? okay
) Let's get back shall we... Right as I was saying.
ALL A LEVELS ARE HARD NO MATTER WHAT so what that
really means, is that
no subject is HARDER than the other! It's only more complicated... You obviously chose the subject because you like it or your parents insisted - guided - nudged - 'wink-winked' you to ... but if you are able to study them, that must mean you are capable - if you met the entry requirements, right? RIGHT.
I wanted to study BCM because I liked it in secondary school, and I still like it now - only they do not like me...
https://media.giphy.com/media/kVev1dICsJ1ss/giphy.gif BUT OVER SUMMER and the first half term, I realised why these SONs OF STEM did not like me
:
1) I revised incorrectly: Revising for A levels is not the same as revising for GCSE. You heard right from ME. (I'll make a post of revision later as this blog is already longer than it should be)
2) I let the excuse of my subjects being 'hard', demotivate me to even prove them wrong. I mean, yes there are challenges but I wasn't willing to
try. I also realise that I can become frustrated really, really, easily....
3) I gave up: COUNTLESS times. I was ready to be done and over with it. I began to hate the subjects I LOVED! That's like a really bad break up, when they say: "It's not me, its you!" <~ I said that right and it was me for all the reasons listed above.
https://media.giphy.com/media/l0MYtK8KsLZoQb4KA/giphy.gifTHIS SEP-OCTI stopped mopping. YES I WAS HELLA SALTY over my grades, but I can ONLY MOVE FORWARD and so can
you. Even if you got AMAZING GRADES or LESS THAT SATISFACTORY, you can still
push yourself to do better.This term, I improved by a milestone, and that's because of my new approach to studying (again, I'll create a different blog for that) and a new approach to failure.
I read read somewhere that
"It's not what happens to you, it's how you react to it" And that is so true. I fell in love with my subjects again, because I wanted to, not because I had to in order to pass.
Now I'm not working towards the A*, I'm working towards gaining as much knowledge as possible, simply because I WANT TO LEARN. It's not all about the grades, its about your knowledge,
to get the grades. Every exam is different, so is every grade boundary....MY Advise to you:
Treat everything you do separately. It doesn't matter if you have failed or succeeded before, treat the next thing you do with a blind eye because Cockiness will laugh at you, and fear of Failure will haunt youAND NOW IM LIKE :
https://media.giphy.com/media/TvhEMG6vlXNcY/giphy.gif~ Thanks for reading that marathon, If you made it to the end, reply to this thread with "
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~ SALTY ~