I really get where you're coming from. Life's a black hole, and sometimes it really sucks out all the good there ever was.
People nowadays feel very unhonest and faker than precious generations, and whilst social media has some positive influence, there's been a lot of bad stuff too.
When you see other people doing fantastic things out in the world and your sitting in your crummy apartment trying to get the bills done on time, it feels really unfair.
Society's become cold and unforgiving, and people are just generally a lot crueller. Many of don't learn about this reality until we're out with a degree, but no job, and not a penny to spare.
People do the ******** of "hey, look at the brighter side", but you do tend to question that. What brighter side? There is no brighter side in this situation.
But the thing is, we need to accept this *****y thing exists. It'll always be looming over you. There's no way around it. But we need to learn to live with it. That's a lot easier said than done, you say. That's true, it is.
How about that degree of yours. It may be no Mickey Mouse, but something made you choose it. What got you passionate about the subject? Try to rekindle that love again.
And whilst your relationship with your Dad isn't great, what about your Mum? Surely she cares about you, and you care about her? Try talking to her. Maybe a conversation could really help the both of you.
And I understand making new friends or even keeping in touch with old ones can be hard. You don't need to get into it straight away. Try with people you're most comfortable with, and if there's no one like that, try getting yourself to do something nice to get you in touch with people.
What about some volunteering, something that involves working around children? It doesn't have to do anything with your degree, but I find being around children and helping them put together building blocks and reading them fairy tales is oddly soothing. They're very innocent and curious, and what you see is genuinely them is relieving to say the least- uncorrupted. It may not be your thing, but give it a shot. Sometimes, kids can really brighten your day.
In terms of jobs, it depends on your reason for wanting it. Do you want it for the money, or do you want it because you love it? Think about that before you jump in. Look at your options. Even if it doesn't relate to your degree, just for having a degree alone, doesn't matter what it is, you can get a job somewhere better than pizza-delivery.
Life is difficult mate, but there are some good people out there. Sometimes, they're hard to notice. They might be shy, or they'll be hiding their true selves behind a facade. But I kid you not, these people, should you find them, will make your world a better place, even if it is by an inkling.
If your finding it difficult to deal with all your thoughts and emotions, talk to someone. There are hotlines for this kind of thing. And if it's really getting out of hand, talk to your GP. Getting in touch with someone who's got insight to such things can really help out, and they can help you with advice, meds and a lot of other things. Counselling and therapy may sound questionable, but they do help people. See if it can work for you.
I hope you get your problems sorted out. All the best mate.