I was a virgin until my 30’s, so I can really understand where a lot of people are coming from. I was terribly shy from puberty onwards, especially around girls, and combining this with low self-esteem meant that I always shied away from talking to the opposite sex.
My friends understood and were supportive, with a gentle bit of piss-taking, but they couldn’t really see why it was so difficult for me to chat women up. I didn’t really enjoy uni that much, was a bit of a loner, didn’t want to socialise much partly for fear that my secret would come out.
I spent most of my 20’s in the gym, hoping looking good would give me confidence to talk to women but however I looked on the outside it was still difficult, and the older I got, the more being a virgin was an embarrassment to me so that was an added pressure against getting into relationships. I hated myself for my shyness and fear but just locked it down deep and got on with my life.
To cut a long story short, I met the woman who is now my wife in my early 30’s. I was despairing of ever being able to have a proper relationship, and we were friends first which helped me to relax around her. Having said that, there was no way on earth I was ever going to tell her that I was a virgin, my deepest secret…way too embarrassing.
When we first had sex I was scared as hell, but ‘fake it until you make it’ worked ok for me, to be honest it was just a massive relief to get it done, but I was still never going to tell her I was a virgin before. Eventually I plucked up the courage to tell her a few months later and I really felt a huge weight being lifted from my being; she was so supportive, wished she’d known earlier and saw it as a good thing. I never thought any woman would ever see their boyfriend being a virgin as a positive, but there you go! We’ve been happy ever since and I truly feel fulfilled in my relationship and life.
What I guess I’m trying to say is: don’t despair, if it can happen to me it can happen to anyone, not all women see male virginity as something to be laughed at, and if you have mental health problems that are really affecting parts of your life massively, talk to someone about it. Maybe if I’d seen a therapist in my 20’s I wouldn’t have hated that part of my personality for so long and would eventually have been able to relax and talk to women and form relationships earlier. Maybe I wouldn’t, but if you don’t try you don’t know.