Thanks for your advice guys
just dont want to ask for help right away cos they say they arent going to read anything before it's submitted and that the questions have to be on specific things so i cant just go what do i do sort of thing
thank you for your help
hopefully :/
just didnt like the idea of some poor person sitting in a nightline office listening to my depressive hysterical ranting for any longer than they had volunteered for
thanks matrix
hope you are well
05/11/17What I'm grateful for todaythat the fireworks have stopped. Bangs give me palpitations and make me start. It's different if you can see what they are coming from but when it's just a general warzoney vibe then its just too much anxiety
A random act of kindness I've donetexted my parent happy bonfire night. Trying to make it up to them somewhat because i feel like i have been the daughter from hell recently and i keep having dreams about things they haven't actually done or said and yeh. Plus i miss them and i feel like they don't miss me enough and it makes me cry but that's all long and complicated and then i feel bad cos they are always so forgiving of me and im just a horrible person and :/
A random act of kindness someone has done for me@furryface12 @ParadoxSocks and
@shadowdweller being nice to me
noone inrl has done anything as i havent seen anyone living in two days
Something I could improve onnot waking up at 5pm, what even happened. First it was 11am then one nightmare later it was 3pm and i was like oh crap get up then it was 5pm ;_;
What I've achieved today/Things I did wellWas yesterday but washed all my bedding cos realised i hadnt washed it since i came to uni
handwashing pillowcases a sheet and a duvet cover is by no means easy so i was pleased with myself
today i managed to do about half of this tedious report. Was just like 11pm and decided to get my metaphorical balls in my hand and just start it. Have no idea if it's right but i watched that section of the lecture like 10 times and tried to extract as much information as possible about what you have to write. Found some good resources and stuff. Guess it's a start
What I've done to look after my mental healthseeing the doctor tomorrow, sure that will be a joyus experience as it always is (can i please have full boxes of stuff going every 2 weeks is such a hassle especially as i will have to pay for them next time as i havent heard back from this hc1 thing yet). Honestly think i will just tell her i feel terrible. Feel like she just wants it to be a straightforward progression and i want that too but it's not happening.
Something I have to look forward todont know, this sort of festive period is really depressing when you are on your own
my nose is cold as apparently it is 2 degrees in here because i have my window wide open cos i feel claustrophobic otherwise. Like having a breeze and cold bedding plus i can keep the stuff i cant keep in the shared fridge on my windowsill and it stays nice and cold
you also use more energy in the cold so that's why i always go out in tshirts