10/11/17What I'm grateful for todaythat im inside and it's warm, probably not the best idea to go wandering around in the dark with just a tshirt on in the middle of a freezing november evening. Was cold earlier on inside tbf cos i fell asleep with the window wide open. Had a very weird dream as a result of the cold and was trapped in it
A random act of kindness I've donei dont really know, i cant really remember much of what i've said today, feel vacant and on autopilot
A random act of kindness someone has done for memy tutors are being so nice to me, idk what i did to deserve such kindness but he drew a graph for me and everything. He said none of the tutors have concerns about my work like i think they do, they know im working hard and that they are just concerned about my health. Am trying hard to believe that my work is ok just is difficult. (this one is a different one to yesterday, was actually scheduled to see them and didnt just become an emotional wreck like yesterday). They say that i can have extensions if i want cos all appointments and things are taking up so much time, i dont want extensions cos i want to be the same as everyone else but its reassuring to know it is there as a backup.
Something I could improve ondomestic stuff. Think my cup is growing a new life form of mould on it and there was a wasp in here before. There are tissues everywhere and everything is a mess but i havent the energy to sort it out. Also eating properly, am scarcely eating but just have a mental block with it atm. Sleeping properly as well, cant fall asleep until very early morning and its exhausting
What I've achieved today/Things I did wellfinished my thing on the software
it's not the best looking thing in the entire world and i think other people's look better but im just glad it's done and i can submit it, we finally have access to the software at home now so i feel better about that cos it means i can practise more as i couldnt have afforded to buy it. In between seeing my mentor and my tutor i also did a lot of work
What I've done to look after my mental healthsaw mentor and tutor, told mentor the irrational things im struggling with and she talked them over with me
Something I have to look forward tohaving a cup of tea
thank you everyone
also please look after yourself today pathway