I've been off uni for about 5 weeks now for Christmas, I have my exams next week and I've done no work. No revision. It's not that I don't want to but every time I start I zone out and can't focus, I can read pages of work and then have to start again because I wasn't paying attention to any of it and it's so frustrating. For years my mum had thought I might have had ADHD, I was admittedly quite a difficult child but I was adamant that it wasn't that. 'Only boys get ADHD and if i have it then it means there's something wrong with me...' was my mentality. I'm now 19 and figured I couldn't possibly have ADHD now, I'm just bad at studying, I'm lazy, I'm not a good student. I couldn't have ADHD because I can sit for hours, days even on end and binge watch shows. When I was in school I could focus on my art coursework for a full day and not even notice the time go by, so how can I have ADHD. Obviously, now that I've looked into it I understand the concept of 'hyperfocus' and some other symptoms of ADHD and my life has never made more sense.
So, my problem is this. To get help or treatment I need to see my doctor. My doctor's surgery however only lets you make an appointment if you ring up at 8 am on the day due to the number of patients, it's always full. My sleep patterns are ****ed (possibly a side effect of ADHD?) and have been for ages. I cant get to sleep until around 5-6am and then will sleep through until about 1pm (I've thought about just staying up until 8 am and then ringing but I always seem to fall asleep by accident, I don't even realise)
My uni work is suffering, I'm missing lectures because I literally cant wake up, I can set 10 alarms and I don't even hear them, I feel like I'm trapped and I don't know what to do. Any help is appreciated, what are any coping mechanisms you've developed to help?