Don't be afraid, the doctors are here to help you, however if you don't feel comfortable talking to them then there is other services which might be able to help. For example there will be a designated member of staff at the school known as the safeguarding lead who will be able to tell you what services are available in your area. I can recommend the Samaritans who you can call on 116 123. Based on your tag line am i right in believe you are considering hurting your self I'm going to tell you now, if you feel you are rock bottom then the only way is up. We all have arguments with our partners but sometime you have to focus on the positive aspects in your life. I have people close to me who have considered and very nearly did in one case, in all those cases it seems to have been talking to the professionals whether this be the doctor, school or even the boss at work. Further more health professionals will be able to help you a lot more than people in a chatroom . What is it about the doctor you are afraid of, if you don't mind me asking? I'm not sure how much this helped but please make sure that you go see someone as there is always a positive nomatter how many negatives you think you can see.