Boyfriend mad at me for a silly reason

I dropped a long paragraph to him as soon as I responded to this, and I shouldn't have checked it again because its been 15 minutes and he starting the emotional abuse again and isnt stopping like he is continuing right now. I feel like absolute ****.

So yesterday my boyfriend saw that another guy and I became friends on playstation, you know on the feed? Anyways it was strange because it said I hadnt been on it in months...maybe my brother was on it or something but it definitely wasnt me who added him.
He ended up swearing at me a lot calling me a ****ing liar, slút, piece of sh*t, Im done with you, go to hell, just die, you disgust me and just leave me and a lot more.
He normally says things like this but I dont know if its healthy or not. And when I tried to explain to him that it wasnt me he wouldnt believe me for hours, until he made me swear to god and on him "basically promise" that it wasnt me and when I did that he was better after. But he should have trusted me from the start when I said it and he didnt which bothers me a lot. Im still upset about it now even though it happened yesterday but should I just dump him? I love him a lot and we've been together for a long time...

So yesterday my boyfriend saw that another guy and I became friends on playstation, you know on the feed? Anyways it was strange because it said I hadnt been on it in months...maybe my brother was on it or something but it definitely wasnt me who added him.
He ended up swearing at me a lot calling me a ****ing liar, slút, piece of sh*t, Im done with you, go to hell, just die, you disgust me and just leave me and a lot more.
He normally says things like this but I dont know if its healthy or not. And when I tried to explain to him that it wasnt me he wouldnt believe me for hours, until he made me swear to god and on him "basically promise" that it wasnt me and when I did that he was better after. But he should have trusted me from the start when I said it and he didnt which bothers me a lot. Im still upset about it now even though it happened yesterday but should I just dump him? I love him a lot and we've been together for a long time...

So yesterday my boyfriend saw that another guy and I became friends on playstation, you know on the feed? Anyways it was strange because it said I hadnt been on it in months...maybe my brother was on it or something but it definitely wasnt me who added him.
He ended up swearing at me a lot calling me a ****ing liar, slút, piece of sh*t, Im done with you, go to hell, just die, you disgust me and just leave me and a lot more.
He normally says things like this but I dont know if its healthy or not. And when I tried to explain to him that it wasnt me he wouldnt believe me for hours, until he made me swear to god and on him "basically promise" that it wasnt me and when I did that he was better after. But he should have trusted me from the start when I said it and he didnt which bothers me a lot. Im still upset about it now even though it happened yesterday but should I just dump him? I love him a lot and we've been together for a long time...

Okay yeah he was mad after the paragraph and it wasnt emotional abuse" but he just wants to talkI dont know if I should

So yesterday my boyfriend saw that another guy and I became friends on playstation, you know on the feed? Anyways it was strange because it said I hadnt been on it in months...maybe my brother was on it or something but it definitely wasnt me who added him.
He ended up swearing at me a lot calling me a ****ing liar, slút, piece of sh*t, Im done with you, go to hell, just die, you disgust me and just leave me and a lot more.
He normally says things like this but I dont know if its healthy or not. And when I tried to explain to him that it wasnt me he wouldnt believe me for hours, until he made me swear to god and on him "basically promise" that it wasnt me and when I did that he was better after. But he should have trusted me from the start when I said it and he didnt which bothers me a lot. Im still upset about it now even though it happened yesterday but should I just dump him? I love him a lot and we've been together for a long time...

Leave him as soon as possible

This guy is super manipulative. The fact you can't tell anyone about him and you're scared of his reactions says it all. You don't need to talk about anything with him anymore... just block him on all social media and stay away from him. His mental health is not your concern - he has forced you to leave him by treating you like crap and TBH the mental health stuff will be mostly lies to stop you leaving anyway. If he knows where you live/your school/etc then you should tell someone just to keep yourself safe as you don't know how he might react.

He sounds abusive and from what you've said it isn't uncommon either. While I don't have the whole picture it sounds like you'd be better off with someone else.

... and you accepted him insulting you???? Come on! Respect yourself, wake up and run! If he calls you names like these now when you are not married, what will be later?? Just think about this and do not accept any humility, do not sware anything because someone ask you to do so, do not promise anything under pressure. Be smart!

Even if you added that person on your list, there is no excuse for his behavior!

I can't bring myself to do it
How do I even go about it?

And at the same time I feel so alone because no one knows about this. I know that what he is saying right now is making me feel bad but he is my first love and I love him too fu*king much to stop it. I need help but I dont know how pfff

I can't bring myself to do it
How do I even go about it?

And at the same time I feel so alone because no one knows about this. I know that what he is saying right now is making me feel bad but he is my first love and I love him too fu*king much to stop it. I need help but I dont know how pfff